you're gonna be the one that saves me,,,, <3

2006-10-23T02:34:00.000-07:00

I am back here, cause I remembered I have no friends there. My friends don't have xanga yet, I'll just wait.

We are an accident. and you`re my favorite one. <3

2006-10-17T09:19:00.000-07:00

Okay.

So I might start a new blog. Xanga. Having a hard time looking for layouts in blogspot. At least there it would be a lot easier, and they have other cute stuffies you can put in your blog. :))

But I might only. `Cause there`s a lot going on, and I don`t know if I have time for any more of this.

Later late. :))

Promises are meant to be broken.

2006-10-15T05:17:00.000-07:00

Okay, so I know I said that I'd continue my last post, but here I am starting a new one. I just forgot what were the other parts of my babble. So yeah.

I finished everything I needed to do. It was a relief. Only the Social quiz I didn't end up memorizing everything in the book. It's sad. Lol.

I'm thinking about changing my layout, but there's no time anymore. Exams are this week, and I'm scared on what the outcome might be.

What else? Hmmm... some of my classmates went here for the Computer project, they wanted me to teach them. It's not because it's hard, it's because they didn't listen to our teacher when he was discussing the project. Haha.

I'm afraid of the Social quiz tomorrow, I might flunk it.

Have I told you I've been the class pariah now? =)) =)) I'm an outcast. I used to belong; I used to know everything about everyone. From TV up to the latest music and latest electronics stuff, but now I'm the last to know.

I'm caught up in my own little word. I guess the borderline between the nerd and me, is that I get to listen to...well...music and that I get to read teen books. Well, technically I don't have time to read, school activities get in the way. And yeah, the only thing that makes me different in the slightest way from a nerd, is that I don't wear glasses. Thank God.

I hate that I don't have time for myself anymore, and if there ever was, it would be...sleeping. And a little bit of the internet. I wish I were ordinary again, like before. Where I don't study too much, and yet get good scores. Days when I get to watch t.v. whenever the fucking hell I want, cause there are no fucking projects to get in the way.

Irresponsible student. That's what I want to be. But I can't. People expect too much. Way too much, that it's becoming overrated.

Life is just there to make it suck even more.

I've said this a million times before...

I hate you.

Should I trust this dialect to convey the right effect?

2006-10-13T02:17:00.000-07:00

Woah, it's been so long, people. A week or two, I think.

So much has happened, that I don't know where to start.

Stuff happened like:

the big blackout. It was irritating- 6 days of no electricity. Almost a week. It was retarded, I swear. I started appreciating nature. =)) =)) I know, it's so unlike me. Lol. I love candles now, to be honest. I'm getting mesmerized by looking at it, and I feel so sad for people who lost their roofs and their houses fallen by trees. Our street looked like a jungle, minus the wild animals. Lol. But hey, I was lucky, I only experienced a 1-day blackout. We have a generator. ;;) :)) :))

back to school. We made-up for the lack of classes. 2 Saturdays. I hate that we have to suffer from the blackout, but I love that we don't suffer from their activities in school for 4 days ( minus the weekend). Unfair. First, because it wasn't our fault that the typhoon came. Second, we have a humongous amount of work to do - assignments, projects, quizzes etc. Third, I hate it because Saturday, is the only day I could rest, from the stress they're giving us. They're practically going to make it 3 Saturdays, but they didn't cause we have exams the following week.

P.E. exam. Typical arguments. Typical Class president. And typical non-followers.*ehemmeehem* Lol. We're sticking to Hawaii, me and my other two friends, and the others they're performing Spanish and Spanish dance. Yes, they're two. Apparently, the typical president is being typically annoying and practically - yes, practically *rolls eyes*- copying the other Spanish people's dance.

Filipino. It just had to make extra pa. Our teacher wanted us to do the next quarter's activity now, so that we can finish it early. Yes, he is enthusiastic at the same time, being annoyingly agressive about time.

My teacher's demo for something. I was the star. =)) =)) =)) It was a video-taped demo. She has to pass it to some professor. I repeat, I was the star, only if the battery of the video camera didn't die. Sad, right? And I didn't attend the demo today, cause I had an X-Ray for the braces I'm going to have. Sad, right? What am I going to look like? : :-S

Continue this later, loves. :-h

I hope this post starts a craze, the kind of post that ignites the airwaves.

2006-09-27T00:02:00.000-07:00

Today was ugly.

I woke up wayyyy later than the usual time. Fucker. I woke up around 6 :30 am, so I was like cramming, I thought I wouldn't reach school. =)) =)) =))

P.E. was fun. Hawaiian. Pearly Shells and Hawaii 50. The dance was... hilarious. Lol.

We practiced here in our house today. It wasn't technically a practice, the boys just played DOTA. Well, the girls did their assignments. How good little persons we were. ;;) We played patintero afterwards outside our house. I didn't know how to play anymore. I sucked. Sucked, sucked, sucked. =)) =)) =)) =))

I found out new songs today, Errol kept downloading stuff here in LimeWire.

Anyway if you're wondering why I am still up, I slept a while ago. I just finished studying.

Let us all pray, I wake up early tomorrow. *Crosses Fingers*

P.S. I found something ironic. How come she talked to me about that thing when she was saying mean things about me -because I was doing it- to her friends behind my back? Sometimes she can be a very... spontaneously "nice" person. The minute she saw my friend while she was talking with her friends, she became all nice and inoccent, like she wasn't saying any fucked up things about me. It is true, but did I ever get told by it? Noooo, because it's not "illegal" Miss I-get-everything-right-and-I-never-make-mistakes-only-people-unlike-me-do. Fucker.

Breathe in so deep, the air is blessed you share with me.

2006-09-25T22:51:00.000-07:00

A post every day, is very unsual. Lol.

Today was a suuuuper lucky day. We didn't have those overrated chek-up tests which were just for class standings. Today was fun.

Pau bumped her head at the door when she was trying to open it. Kat made a sort of embarassing moment again. Those were fun to see. I was the only person who saw those incidents. Lol.

I forgot my calculator today; I left it at home. What a fucker. So I had to borrow. And English was retarded. I thought I heard her say "Japanese Literature" not "Japanese Traits". It was annoying. I got three mistakes, no matter what she decides on if their answers are correct, I wouldn't be getting benefits either. Lucky them, they listened. *Sigh*

Listening to Mix Tape by Brand New.

Sir Laurel got me freaking out in class. He told me since I got Top ! ... I should go solo on the project for 3rd quarter, since I got Top ! whatever this quarter. Was it my fault that I got that position? But it would be unfairly evil, if - God, I hope to still be in top !- I go solo. When was being good ever become this hellish? Lol. Save me. But anyway, I still don't know yet what the outcome might be, but I still pray I get it, even if there are consequences awaiting. Lol. Solemn much?!

I'm in a much better mood than last night, maybe too much ham sandwich is good for me. Lol.

Ohh have I mentioned that Kat's eldest sister and my ever so vain eldest brother knew each other since they were both in college? But anyway, Kat said it was "destiny". Whatever. I shall warn her sister, my brother's kind of a... the end.

"Are you like funny?" Lol.

But her sister's like suuuper pretty; unlike her. Kidding. They're so not alike, I don't even see any resemblance. She's adopted maybe? Kidding. Love you, Kat.

We officially have a theme song : What I've Been Looking For.
We sing that song whenever we're together, so basically that's what we've agreed on.

"It's hard to believe that I couldn't see, that you were always right beside me..."

She's fun to be with; sometimes annoying. But yeah, she's fun. And she's carefree. And super smart. Lol.

Jesus Crust -- I got that from some boards thing. Funny, right?

Bye...uhmmm...people.

She gets the skills from the pills, she gets the pills from the skills.

2006-09-24T22:30:00.000-07:00

I didn`t end up finishing everything I had to do. And it sucks. Big time.

Although I finished the basics and the most important stuff. It was a relief to have finished all the things that had to be done.

I am exhausted, that what I wanted to do right now is to relax - which I am doing right now - and forget whatever`s gonna happen tomorrow. But I can`t do that, can I? My life is so complex, not just because of school but also with personal matters, it`s a bit mixed, I cannot sort it right. I pray tomorrow`s gonna be fine, or else I`m toast.

I just realized that I hate what I used to love before. It`s fucked up. Everyone wants to bring you down, even in the simplest way. If I had one wish, that would be not waking up for some retarded reason. Lol.

I`m just here to vent and vent and vent. Why does she always have to be good in everything, and have everything that I have always wanted? Why does she want to take everything away from me? I know it'` unintentional, but somehow whenever we're together, there's tension, an awkward tension, like whenever she comes around, I want to hide and not ever speak to her - but I can`t do that she's my friend, I can't say she's my bestfriend because I feel irritated standing next to the person who you`ve conjured being you in a dreamily way. I hate that the person I wanted to be, is with me; talking to me, laughing with, having arguements with and doing things with. And now the new friend I have found to replace her was well... getting close to her. I envy her in so many ways, and it`s bad right?

We share so many things in common, that she does without even getting strained. I have done things which weren't nice, that I got caught for, but never did once she got caught; hers was even worse than mine. I feel like we shouldn't be friends, she's way overrated and I'm... underestimated. Eventhough I have this some sort of thing with everyone, I don't really feel... unique or maybe different, like I'm missing out on something.

Ever since the day she shoved at my face how correct she was in what we did, I felt down and annoyed, annoyed to her, to the people who follow her, so I felt mostly annoyed to myself. Consequently, I avoid being with her at all times possible.

I might even quit the club I had joined in, Comm. Arts Club. I might even quit the band too. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I just don't want to be associated with her in any way possible or even be connected to her.

Melodramatic much?! I guess I could say that. Hey, I'm venting, remember?

Bye fuckkerrrrs.

Morning.

2006-09-22T18:10:00.000-07:00

Hey all. :)

I'm blogging right now. 9:00 am. I'm about to eat breakfast in a little while.

I shouldn't be blogging right now, I have tons to do :

Math Portfolio ( It was given ages ago, but I was...busy? Lol. I was lazy.)
Book Report in English
Movie Review (The Last Samurai) in English again
Interview someone for Filipino
Social Studies and T.L.E and Fil.
Fil. assign

Gotta go,

stuff

2006-09-21T18:15:00.000-07:00

My recent posts made me smile, some made me laugh so hard. :)

I won't edit my recent posts even if there were a lot of typos and shallow contents. It was fun to read, actually it was hilarious. With just a short time, I feel like I've matured a little bit.

The "why oh why?" expression made me laugh. It sounded unlike me... it was... dorky. Lol. And I noticed I've had some wrong grammars along the way, but I don't mind- people make mistakes. That was... nerdy? Lol.

Anyway, I was just reading my posts to amuse myself.

Uh-huh. Bye now. :P

Tuesday.

2006-09-19T10:19:00.000-07:00

I know, it's been so long. :)

Tomorrow's the cheering competition. We're going home early to watch it- but I'm not. Lol.

Today was okay. It was ordinary. I haven't felt pissed off but happy at the same time in a while. It was... refreshing? Lol. I was hurt by someone today. Not a boy. Lol. She should've been considerate on what others might feel when they say mindless retorts.

Just because we're not that friends anymore, you don't have the right to treat me like that and vice versa. I know I havent' been the nicest person since that unwanted incident, but hey, I still do smile when you're around right?- this is just ugly, ugly, ugly.

And have I told you I'm in a band now? Well obviously not, cause I haven't been blogging. Stupid question. Lol. We don't have a name for the band yet, but we're going to join a contest; the San Lorenzo thing. I was supposed to be the vocalist (no comments needed. Lol.), but they wanted me playing either bass or rythm. Ouch. They wanted rock songs, so basically, I cannot sing those type of songs. Haha, but whatever, at least I get to join. Although I don't know why and how they picked me. It was a mystery. Ask my classmates, I play like a loser. Lol.

Gotta go, need ta sleep. After dismissal tomorrow, I'mma watch John Tucker Must Die. :> :> With my sister, and my cousin, I think.

Ohh and also tomorrow, my Uncle from the States is coming home and staying for a week or so. Ha, it's gonna be awesome; presents, malling, moo-vies, and parties- definitely means reunions and non-stop singing. Can't wait. :> :>

Have you noticed how many Lol's I put? They were too many to count. Lol. Oops. ;;)

Cause life is yours to cherish. But it's also yours to lose.

Saturday.

2006-09-09T22:30:00.000-07:00

Heyy. I know, haven't been updating in a looooong while.

But anyway, I was supposed to go blogging last night, but my blog won't open so I resorted to changing my profile colors and stuff.

I have so much to tell yesterday, but now I'm left with nothing, the things I only remember were the victory party and the jamming yesterday (if you could call it that) and oh, the debate.

Okay so the victory party last week I think was messed up, I got pissed of by her again, okay so I changed my mind, I am never ever going to apologize to her. She's the worst teacher's pet ever. Omg, does she really have to give all the nice foods to our ever-so-not-helping teachers (well most of them). Psh, as if they're gonna make your grades go up by giving them all those food.

There were fun moments and embarassing moments for me. Haha. For the first time I sang, in front of the whole class, well technically I sang with a microphone while sitting on the floor. It was embarassing, I have never sang in a crowd. I sang 'Akap' by Imago, then uhm, I played a little bit of guitar. And we took pics on Maine's phone and I sang and sang, and then there, I forgot na.

Ohh and here's the messed up part, we got scolded by the evil person again, she's too evil to even mention her name. And Daisy was pissed of and she turns to uhm a scary, temperamental person when gets pissed off, so we didn't formally sing. And we're thinking of forming a band, but yeah, I think that's not going to work. :))

Sayang Felipe, you didn't get the chance to sing High.

The debate was about whether a criminal should be senteced of lethal injection or not if he did something wrong, and I was on the side of the pro-lethal injection people. Because for me it's a must. The debate yesterday was... unfair, we're supposed to win, it's just my sort-of-patriotic classmate had to mention the government and all, he contradicted what our leader had said when he's our groupmate, so we lost, and the evil person won again. Feels like everything's on her side.

Well that's going to change. Everyone's seeing who you really are. :)

Ohh and yesterday also I went to Daisy's house, 'cause she promised to teach me how to play the drums. And I made Kat come along, along with Mae, Pau, and Jea and Felipe also.

It's official, I am the slowest person to be ever taught. First, guitar then drums. I think I am the only person who has no talent, other than talking. =)) =)) =)) And I kind of feel bad for myself. :( But I will try my hardest. Since apparently, my guitar and I are quite getting along now. Lol.

Okay, gotta go, if I don't my mom will start to lecture me with the iPod thing while chatting with her on YM. And I have other ways of getting it, not only by her. :))

And I'm not getting a new phone any sooner, and it sucks. The PC's hacked again, so I'm using the laptop, and I don't have any music to listen to, so PureVolume's my LimeWire for now.

My life's crappy, I don't get anything in return for... well...stuff. And we all know, it's so hard to do the best when you don't get... well...stuff. Lol. It just sucks.

Life's like that, it's... well...crap.

I'm editing this post because I've had a lot of typos from last night's blogging, it's a Sunday right now. Shit, I still have to study for the Check-up test in English.

I'd rather read the It Girl than to study other countries cultures,

Eunice

Saturday.

2006-08-26T14:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fun. Well not so much. Haha. It was a complete relief, because the Linggo ng Wika's yesterday, well technically, it was over since last week I think.

I was selected as a participant for the LNW so we danced the Ba-Ingles 8 times this week. Two last Tuesday, two for Wednesday, Thursday & Friday. I'm just relieved because I wouldn't miss any of my classes anymore and have to catch up with new lessons. But hey, it brought something good- I got an additional point on my card, even if it was just P.E. It matters. LOL.

Anyway, I got home early from school yesterday, around 2 in the afternoon. Even if the classes were shortened because of the deliberation thing, we did a lot of things. Especially T.L.E. Isometric drawings are not for me, I swear. The 'H' isometric drawing was for hardass teacher. Dammit. Good thing, my brother's pro with these sort of stuff, I shall ________. You fill in the blanks. =)) =))

I shall read now, Because I'm Worth It, only a few pages left. :> :>

My posts are just starting to get boring as ever.

And I feel like I should apologize to her. And I have my own way. Doing favors or reciprocating her good deeds. Weee, I feel guilty of what I did, but the question is, what did I really do actually? But yeah, saying sorry's much better, but I don't know if I have the guts for it.

If there's a reason, it's lost on me,
maybe we'll be friends, I guess we'll see

Contemplating,
Eunice

Saturday.

2006-08-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

If there's a reason, it's lost on me,
maybe we'll be friends, I guess we'll see

Contemplating,
Eunice

Oh well.

2006-08-22T18:56:00.000-07:00

We lost. It's sad. Everyone's tired. Everyone's sick. And some of us cried. Well, half of the class actually, excluding me.

It was humiliating, to lose infront of 300 people excluding the parents who went with their children. We only got an average of 86 % compared to the winner who got an average of 95 %. :((

Goodbye 90 and 92. Hello 88. Sorry wrong info in the last post. We get 88 in the exams not in the final grade. So it was a bit 'kay.

Half of the people in our class was sick. Some has fever, flu and cough. And unfortunately, I carry those three illnesses.

And most of all, almost half of the class wept, as in wiped out. It was devastating, to see everyone cry like that. Even I, got teary-eyed a bit.

We expected so much from each and everyone of us, it wasn't our best of course, because everyone was sick and tired from yesterday's activities. We would've at least gotten the 2nd place if everyone was in their best conditions and cheerful manners. But yeah, we lost.

It was hard to accept mostly to the Cypress students, because teachers expected us at our best, being the first section. I kind of have accepted the fact that we would not get the 1st place, but still in pretention I still do wish the upmost for us.

It was also our fault, we thought we could do it alone without the help of others. We thought we could think of unique and creative ideas, but we were wrong.

We learned from our mistakes, and we hope never to repeat it again. I cannot say that what we did for the past weeks were a waste of time and a big mistake, because each of us learned something from it. We learned to accept the truth and accept that not everytime, the people you thought that has the best, may sometimes have the not-so-best of everything. It also wasn't a waste of time, because we had fun and bonded with our friends and even connected with the people you thought you'd never get along.

And to our leader, who has helped us through so much, and even though we've had some conflicts, thank you. And I'm sorry I didn't see how much effort you've put through and pull through in getting us together, and making us a whole just for this Sabayan. Thank you and sorry. Just don't ever think this was all your fault, (because you made it seem like it earlier) each and everyone of us has their own mistakes.Just don't ever think we'd blame you for losing, because we would have lost long ago if you didn't have this cool and funny ideas.

Hey at least we still have a place. Third place. :)

And congratulations (!!!) to the Mahogany people - you guys kick ass. Well, you kicked our asses of course. Kidding. Btw Eric, everyone in our section is going to rip your head off. You were just a wallflower there, Socrates. >:P And also to the Gmelina people. The black & white faces, were soooo... Michael Jackson. Kidding. You guys did great.

When's the victory party??? And most of all, are we invited? :> :> :>

And to the Cypress people, it's done and we can't change it anymore. It's already in the past, so all we can do now is change the future. Lame =)) =)). But yeah, there's next year. And we shall kick ass! Whatever. But will there be anyone applying for Sabayan choreographers next year? Kidding. We'll see.

For now we shall focus on our studies.

PS: Thanks to Sir Yepez, for giving advices and tips, even if it was all too late. But, thanks. :D

Light up, light up, as if you have a choice.
Even if you cannot hear my voice.

Better luck next time,
Eunice

Erased.

2006-08-21T12:08:00.000-07:00

I'm sick. I didn't go to practice today. I'm dead and my classmates are mad at me. Well only some. :>

I deleted my last post cause I'm pretty sure someone might have told her about what I wrote here. Don't worry Mara, it's not you. Kidding. =)))) Basta I'm having this feeling that one of her friends read it and then told her. I'll stop now or I'll be dead tomorrow.

My head keeps on aching, stupid fever. >:P

Oh well, good luck to the Cypress people tomorrow, we shall ~~kick ass~~. Scratch that. We shall do our best tomorrow. Or else we'll get a 90 on our card.

& I have a feeling we'll win, cause we're fighting. =)) And you know how that works with us.

No matter what, I'll love some of you. Kidding. Good luck to the Cypress people again.

My brain's twisting,
Eunice

Name-calling is <3.

2006-08-09T17:27:00.000-07:00

Wahaha, I started calling some of my classmates weird nicknames. Daisy is cupcake, Blessie is gummy bears, Ana Gail is sugar donut ( I don't know how I came up with that, it was just weird) Lol. Cheekz is honey bunch, and oh well, I'm manong. =)) =)) Mine is just jologs. Daisy kasi ehh. =)) =)) =)) =))

Wala lang I have nothing to blog about, so here I am typing the most random post of my blog. And btw, I call Errol autistic and Felipe see-through. =)) =)) We use those nicknames when we want to annoy each other, esp. when we're pretending we're dykes or lesbians, and as for Errol and Felipe's case, nothing, I just call them like that, because it's true. Kidding. I know, completely gross and weird. Who could blame us? Apparently, there are no hot guys around, so we hit on each other. Kidding. Lol. =))

Big test tomorrow wish me luck,
Eunice

Blank.

2006-07-30T22:39:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. I am back. =))

My Saturday was fun and a bit lost. =))

We watched the Florante At Laura play...finally. I'm just glad we already did, cause it's giving me a headache with their profound words in the book. Hahaha.

It started off crazy, bestfriends were losing their bestfriends, and students were going crazy looking for their advisers. They were lateeeeeeeeeee. Just bad examples. Peace.

Maine, Cheekz, Daisy & I were in the same bus and we did a lot of retarded stuff. We ate a lot, and took weird pictures of ours on Daisy's phone. We almostthrew Daisy's phone outside the bus. =)) =)) =)) And yeah, I got high again, and said "hi" to the drivers passing-by. I know, jologs. =)) =))

When we got there, we weren't with our advisers, so we met up with them na sa AFP. After that we ate in the bus and after that went in-line and went inside.

While we were watching the play, the guy who plays Florante was having a husky voice. At first we thought it was his normal voice, but then as the play continues, his voice got hoarse, and I can hear it vaguely. There was even a part where he was suppose to shout and say "Menandro!" but then it came out like, the voice of an old man. =)) =)) =)) So me and Daisy laughed so hard, it was so loud that even the Florante guy heard it and smiled a little, because he too laughs at his own voice. =)) =)) And one of the cast speaks so loud that when he said "taksil' he spat on him and we saw it, it was like... spit shower. =)) =)) =))

And right before the very start of the show, when we got in, I've had a little bit of an embarrassing moment. Everyone looked at me. And started saying mean things. Ugh, it was sooo... embarrassing? =)) =)) It started because this girl from the other section was suppose dto sit on the seat next to this other girl but instead she left one vacant seat, so I had to move on the next row, farrrrrrrrrr from my friends. Err, we fixed it though, Maine kind of made a seat plan on who's gonna sit on who's seat, and it all worked out. *does the happy dance*

After the play we saw students from other schools, which were...err... not hot. =)) =)) And it sucks big time, because we have our name patch on our uniforms, so they called us by our first names, though we didn't even know them personally. >:P

But when we got outside, omg, there were hot guys na!!! Nge. =)) Basta, we saw someone who was cute, the guy in a blue shirt.

But anyway, I had a problem when I was about to get home cause my partner in my project had an agreement that we'd go to the mall right after the play. But she forgot about it, basta I'm tamad to make kwento cause my eyes are starting to get itchy. Our stiry that time was like so close, but yet so far apart. Hahaha. Good thing I saw Luigi at the mall and asked me if I wanted to come with him to go see his girlfriend and our other classmates. And I called Kat as to where she was, and decided to meet up with her in National. Basta magulo. Okay, so to those who saw us, he has a girlfriend, and we are friends, close friends. So don't make a big deal about it.

I don't really feel like putting song lyrics in here anymore, instead, I'll put quotes. :)

Best friends are what you need most.

Saturday was fun,
Eunice

Classes are back. ):

2006-07-25T22:43:00.000-07:00

Okay so yeah, last post before classes starts again tomorrow.

The storm just always ruins the good parts of not having school, like if ever we don't have school tomorrow ( basically that's not going to happen) the day after that will be the Recollection, so basically we're not going to have classes, which is a good thing. But this is just wishful thinking.

But who knows? You know who knows? I do. I'll know tomorrow, around 4 a.m. Muhaha. Eventually, everyone will, I won't be the only one. :P

I wrote two poems today, I was inspired by someone, she just wrote a really good poem and I loved it. I still have to read more and more to expand my vocabulary.

Chatting with Blessie right now, she's so much fun to chat with. We only get along in YM, but in school we barely talk to each other. We both don't know why we're not close in school. But who knows right? You know who doesn't know? I don't. How lame. :|

I'mma go now, we're talking about weird smileys right now and...and..it's creeping me out. There are so many weird smileys, like the silly icon, I hate that one.

" I am conscious of time, to lose, to spend too much, to spend unwise." -- that was a line from the poem that I read, it was really well-written, if you could just read the whole poem.

Your eyes tell everything, they are the world to me.
They said you can wait forever for me, but how?
When my forever had already ended because right now I'm with someone else.

We're going in circles
Don't know where to go, where this will lead us.
All I know that if we ever get tired from doing this
My love never stopped going in circles just to find its way back to you.

Blogspot's being an ass again, I couldn't put an icon.

Well here's my icon.

:|

I don't know what to put,
Eunice

SONA

2006-07-24T10:05:00.000-07:00

No Classes Today. :)

Because PGMA's gonna ramble today about our country. Wohooooo...not. Well at least it brought something nice, no school today. Hahaha.

That's all I just wanted to post, I'm chatting with a few people right now. Alexx & Jae.

And I'm looking for a new layout, so yeah. I'll be back maybe laterrrrr.

And good luck to GMA, I hope she fools more people, on how great the country is to live in, trust me dear, I won't be one of them. ;;)

About Y-O-U:
Do you have a lot of friends? Uhmm, yes, I think.
Do you like your family? They're okay. Just sometimes hard to get a long with.
What kind of music do you like? Almost everything, just not techno.
Would you ever run for president? Uhh, like... NO. :)
Is there a song lyric that you think reflects your life? Yes, a mixture of like not getting committed to someone else and the ones like you're really happy but deep down inside you're hurt. Something like that. :D

Just Random:
What color is your tooth brush? Green. :)
Were you anti-boy bands back in the days? No, I loved them when I was 6 or 5.
What type of survey questions do you hate? The relationship surveys, sometimes they're a bit lewd.
Is there anything that you need to have all of the time? The internet.
What kind of shampoo do you use? Pantene.
Conditioner? Pantene.
Do you feel guilty easily? Yes. Sometimes.
Do you constantly think someone is mad at you? Yes.
Do you find yourself at all eccentric? Somehow, yes/
Are you bossy? I think I'm not, because I constantly think that whenever you're the leader someone's always mad at you, and I don't like leading so basically, I'm not. =))
If your father was your age and not your father, would you be friends? No.
Are you involved in school activites? Yes.
Do people call you any names that bother you? All the time. >:P
What`s your family situation? All of them are old.
What color shirt are you wearing? An orange one.

When was the last time you...
Brushed your teeth? This morning.
Listened to a rap song? Yesterday.
Listened to a rock song? Right now. :)
Went out to eat? Yesterday.
Got a phone call? Just now.
Made a phone call? Yesterday.
Skipped school? Last year, I think? :D.
Felt guilty? Today.
Went swimming? Forgot.
Went shopping? I haven't been to the mall for months. =)).
Got a 100 on a test? You mean like a perfect score? If so, then last Friday. =))
Were insulted? Probably a while ago.

Have you ever...
Smoked? No. :D
Drank? Yeah.
Sworn? All the time.
Lied? Yes.
Cheated? Yes. =)) =))
Ran away from home? Nope, but getting there. JK. =)) =))
Wanted to leave a party/"get-together" because you felt uncomfortable? Yes.
Questioned your existence? All the time.
Been on a cruise ship? Nope.

School.
Where do you go to school? MS.
What`s your school mascot? We don't have any. :))
School colors? I don't even know if we have school colors. =))
When do you have lunch? After three subjects.
Who sits next to you in english class? Cheekz.
Do you take a foriegn language class? Nope.
Do you hate school? Yes. No. Sometimes. It depends, actually.
Would/have you ever dropped out? Almost.
Where`s your locker? I don't have a locker, because I don't like putting my stuff there. :)) Weird.
What`s the best thing about school? Free time and Intramurals. :)
The worst? Tests & drafting.

More Random Questions.
Have you ever been insulted by a stranger? Yes.
Do you make plans around your TV schedule? Yes.
What color is your alarm clock? Pink. :)
Do you enjoy cooking? No.
Have you ever tried to start a hot new phrase on your own? Yes. A lot of times, in school.
..And succeeded? Yes, because I make up weird phrases.
Would you want to write a book? Someday, definitely.
Do you think the 80`s will come back? No.
Ever stuck a condom in your shoe? Uhh like, no...and it's gross,. :

Lovers.
Do you have an amazing lover you`d like to tell us about? If so, go ahead: No.
Are you one of those who cry and cry after a 2-week relationship ends? No.
Do those people disgust you? Depending on how old the person is, then yes.
Are you excessively flirtacious? No.
Virgin? Yes.
Willing to give your whole life so a relationship works? No, I'd never be sure if the person you're willing to give it to is that worth it.
Do those people annoy you? Sometimes.

Movies.
Have you ever seen Star Wars: Episode II? Yes, and that's the only Star Wars movie I've seen, I think.
Chicken Little? Yes.
Did Dodgeball have a point? No, not for me.
What did you think of the ending of Coyote Ugly? Haven't seen it.
Favorite movie sequel? Spiderman.
Worst movie ever? Hellboy, he should burn in hell. =)) =)) =))

More random questions!
Do you have a MySpace? yes, only I don't have a picture yet.
Online journal? Yes, this one. :))
Niece/nephew? Yes.
What`s the grimiest thing you`ve ever done? I don`t know.
Do you have a cellphone? Yes.
Do you know all the words to "American Pie?" I used to. =)) All I know is that, it's the only song that has never repeated its lyrics. :)
Do you enjoy taking internet quizzes that tell you about your personality? Sometimes.
Taking surveys where you tell the internet about your personality? No.
Do you know what a "nimphophobiac" is? Nope. =))
Do you believe in god? Yes.
What kind of dressing do you use for your salad? I don`t put anything.
Blue or black ink? Black.
Ever written a love note? No.
Do you call people strange things? Yes and I'm sorry. :))
Do you go to church? Yes.
Did you have a kite as a kid? No.

Bolding.

I take a vitaman supplement.
I've never been to New York. :(
I'm a vegetarian.
I get mostly A's and B's on my report card.
I'm taking Home Ec.
People tell me all the time that I'm photogenic. (Not all the time.)
I'm born in the month of April.
My astroligical sign is Cancer.
I don't even believe in astrology.
I have been to Canada at least twice.
If I lost my lipgloss, I'd probably die.
When I draw people they usually look like stick figures.
Kelly Clarkson gets on my nerves. (Sometimes.)
I have an iPod. ( An MP3 but not an iPod)
I listen to the classic rock station on the radio.
I have a crush on someone who's two years older than me.
I'll eat anything you give me.
I'm a picky eater.
I'm actually more of a cat person.
I prefer Lays to Pringles.
On school days I wake up around 6:00 a.m.
I love Trix cereal.
I still buy happy meals.
My toenails are painted right now.
I've skimmed through the encyclopedia for no reason before.
The floor of the room I'm in right now is wooden.
I'm in the French Club.
My school doesn't even have a French Club.
I enjoy gardening.
I don't have a single favorite song.
I have a computer in my room.
I'm chewing gum right now.
I had a taco for lunch.
I can't play a musical instrument.
I sometimes wish I had a British accent.
I don't like crepes.
Music is my boyfriend.
I like to listen to rap.
No, actually, rap is crap without the 'c'.
I've heard of The Spinto Band.
I love The Spinto Band's music.
I play basketball.
I play field hockey.
I'm a cheerleader.
I have, like, 17048710284 inside jokes with my friends.
I have some type of phobia.
I still have Barbie dolls/action figures from when I was a little kid.
I'd rather shave my legs with a nail file than actually ask my crush to a dance. They can ask me.
Yahoo! is my e-mail provider.
I can't resist buying Tabloids.
I get payed less than minimum wage.
When I first meet people, I usually hate them right off the bat, but then later I think they're okay.
I really love metallics.
Math is probably my worst subject.
My reading level is above what the average kid my age is.
I'm 14 years old.
I don't understand why guys think that if they act perverted you'll like them.
I have personally met the person who's site I got this survey from.
No, I will not vote for Pedro.
I'm really mad now because the movie Napoleon Dynamite rocks.
I laugh at kids who try to dress gangster.
They seriously need to bring Boy Meets World back on the air.
I have a problem with labeling people.
People tend to label me, but I don't really care.
People do label me, and it makes me mad.
I don't think I even have a label.
I don't have my driver's license or permit.
I love movie theatre popcorn.
I'm not a Harry Potter fan.
I never notice people's eyes color, unless they point it out to me. (Only the blue ones. Haha.)
I spend waaaaaay too much time on the computer. :D
I don't have a bestfriend.
Fall Out Boy was awesome before, but now that they got on MTV, they've sort of lost their awesomeness.
MTV makes me mad sometimes.
But the Andy Milonokis Show rocks.
I hate the little kids in my neighborhood, and the big fat ugly one next door.
I have to take pills for depression. ( I used to, and I used to take therapy. :))
I like bolding surveys.
This particular survey sucked.

And that was a survey. Obviously. =))

Wish me luck & hope to die,
Eunice

Tiring Sunday. >:P

2006-07-23T22:32:00.000-07:00

Today was uhmm... irritating. That's all I cannot ramble anymore because someone might react when she reads this, and put neverending minuses on Values. ;)

Be glad, I'm still nice and all I do is make sarcastic comments about how 5 minutesssssssss, turned out to be an hour and a half. >:) Ohh, I'll shoot you up & die like... NOW.

There are fun parts of this uncoordinated day, we saw someone, who was...hot! Hahaha. :)) And we made stupid stuff along wth my friends and said really nice things about a lot of people who aren't nice. I know, right? ;;)

I gotta go, super exhausted cause I woke up around 4 a.m.-ish and haven't slept since then. RAWR.

Let us die all, ~~let us live forever.~~

( You're Retarded.)

I hope you choke & die.

Just wait,
Eunice :>

No Classes Tomorrow.

2006-07-20T03:35:00.001-07:00

NO CLASSES TOMORROW. :D

Again, I repeat, No Classes Tomorrow, well Second Year girls only. Muhaha. >:)
It's because the boys are getting redeemed tomorrow, or they're going to recollect, basta they're having a RECOLLECTION tomorrow. =))

We're gonna have ours on the 3rd of August. Good luck to the guys, I hope they get redeemed tomorrow or whatsoever. >:)

As for me, I'll still be the girl who's on the "dark side" ( Katrina) waiting for the day. August 3rd. I need a pray-over. Wehhh. =))

My classmates keep telling me that I should go back to the way I was or who I was, cause I was a much better person before, but as I listen to them tell me that was just hard to process. Cause I thought that maybe as we grow older we'll do more mature things and make more mature decisions, but I was wrong, I made the one mistake that I may or may not change. The things I do now were the things I despised the most when I was younger. I guess people really do change-- and I'm one of them. We'll see where I'm headed, I just have to promise that I won't screw up big time before it's all too late.

Enough of being emo. :| ( Yes, that's the face of an emo-ish person, expressionless.)

Anyway today was fun, we did a lot of things, but weren't that hard, so it was okay. And btw, I'm coping, coping in Business Math, I get acceptable & passing grades now. :)) And drafting with graphing paper is so much easier. :> Trust me, if things are like this, then it's heaven. Exaggerrated. I know. But my only problem is...Math. I know how to solve it, I'm just careless in reviewing it. So long patience, you & I aren't meant to be. =)))))

And... I'm dead again. I got told again by him cause of what he thought I said when I honestly didn't say anything. Sigh, she's being paranoid again. I wouldn't be surprised if I'm the next one, cause if she keeps telling things that doesn't exist, then yes, I'm heading in paranoia world.

Yes, no classes tomorrow, I can use the comp for hours! >:) Muhahaha.

"People ask me if I believe in forever and I can't help but {{sit back}} and laugh because with the way my life's going, I don't even believe tomorrow."

---I can't wait till I'm dead.

( No song because I have a quote. :)))

You told things I never said out loud,
I was supposed to
But I was afraid you might get hurt and would think it wasn't true
Because all things I would say was about you.

I thought you were my bestfriend
A person I could lean on when everything's coming to an end.
But I was wrong, you betrayed me.
The betraying part wasn't the worst part,
the worst part is, I couldn't have my bestfriend in all my times of hurt.

( I wrote those again.)

You killed me well,

Eunice

No Classes Tomorrow.

2006-07-20T03:35:00.000-07:00

NO CLASSES TOMORROW. :D

Again, I repeat, No Classes Tomorrow, well Second Year girls only. Muhaha. >:)
It's because the boys are getting redeemed tomorrow, or they're going to recollect, basta they're having a RECOLLECTION tomorrow. =))

We're gonna have ours on the 3rd of August. Good luck to the guys, I hope they get redeemed tomorrow or whatsoever. >:)

As for me, I'll still be the girl who's in the "dark side" ( Katrina) waiting for the day. August 3rd. I need a pray-over. Wehhh. =))

My classmates keep telling me that I should go back to the way I was or who I was, cause I was a much better person before, but as I listen to them tell me that was just hard to process. Cause I thought that maybe as we grow older we'll do more mature things and make more mature decisions, but I was wrong, I made the one mistake that I may or may not change. The things I do now were the things I despised the most when I was younger. I guess people really do change-- and I'm one of them. We'll see where I'm headed, I just have to promise that I won't screw up big time before it's all too late.

Enough of being emo. :| ( Yes, that's the face of an emo-ish person, expressionless.)

Anyway today was fun, we did a lot of things, but weren't that hard, so it was okay. And btw, I'm coping, coping in Business Math, I get acceptable & passing grades now. :)) And drafting with graphing paper is so much easier. :> Trust me, if things are like this, then it's heaven. Exaggerrated. I know. But my only problem is...Math. I know how to solve it, I'm just careless in reviewing it. So long patience, you & I aren't meant to be. =)))))

And... I'm dead again. I got told again by him cause of what he thought I said when I honestly didn't say. Sigh, she's being paranoid again. I wouldn't be surprised if I'm the next one, cause if she keeps telling things that doesn't exist, then yes, I'm heading in paranoia world.

Yes, no classes tomorrow, I can use the comp for hours! >:) Muhahaha.

You told things I never said out loud,
I was supposed to
But I was afraid you would think it wasn't true
Because all of the things I would say was about you.

I thought you were my bestfriend
A person I could lean on when everything's coming to an end.
But I was wrong, you betrayed me.
The betraying part wasn't the worse part,
the worst part is, I couldn't have my bestfriend in all my times of hurt.

( I wrote those again.)

You killed me well,

Eunice

2006-07-13T04:05:00.000-07:00

Puchaaaaaaaaaaa. May pasok na bukas. Wahhhhhhh.

Why did the storm have to leave on the last day of school this week??? Why oh why? Wah, the storm, betrayed me, we made pact. ( yeah right) Whatever, I still don't feel all hyper for school tomorrow, I might turn into a monster tomorrow, cause I'm pissed.

I'm still not ready to recite the poem tomorrow, and I'm definitely avoiding Drafting, though I know it's impossible, but still I want it to be a little delayed. Nyahaha.

Okay, so gotta go & cause my Dad's being a parent again. Wahaha. And by parent I mean telling me to study or review. Asar, may classes pa kasi ehh no, hayyy.

She looked at me with the saddest eyes
The one that I have never recognized.
She smiles so brightly
Only to be followed with a quiet cry
The one I can barely hear.

Last night she did it again
The one where you can feel pain
like an emotional drain.
Something hit me the time she broke down, the time she looked at me in the eyes
I knew there was something more
Something more, that is unexplainable.
Like the time she was weak & vulnerable.

The time she smiled as well as her heart, was the time she knew she was in love.
And the time she first cried over a boy she knew she had fallen in love with him that hard.

( I wrote those two, sorry if it's panget. :D)

you fight to hold on,
& you fight to let go.
by the worlds standards,
we will never be perfect.
but for some reason with you,
I feel perfected.
i like the fact that
someone like you
sees something in me.

The storm is such a letdown,
Eunice

I'm too COOL for SCHOOL. Nyahaha.

2006-07-12T04:09:00.000-07:00

Pucha, I hope there's no classes tomorrow. End of story. =))

You might be wondering what I'm doing here, right now blogging, even if it's a Wednesday. That's because school was cut today, stupid DepEd people, they have to announce that there were no classes when we were in school already. Wahhh, I got home tuloy around 2 p.m. Buti nalang there were no assignments given, kundi patay na naman. =))

Today was fun although someone stumbled near the Rest Room and got his head cut. OMG it was gross, his blood was like dripping all over & it made like prints on where he went, it was a trail of blood. Scary. >:) He was in our year level, but not our classmate, though I feel sorry for him. I never imagined looking in the mirror in the Rest Room would make such a terrible accident. =)) =))

OMG, I ruled the whole class today, cause the president was campaigning for the S.B.O. so I was left in-charge. I wasn't all president-ish like the real president. =)) =)) I don't care, as long as we're all having fun, then it's fine with me. Wow. =))

Campaigning was fun today, everyone has their own platforms and their own promised broken promises. =)) =)) =)) One guy who was running sang the theme song of Capt. Barbell I think, and he was weird & autistic. Peace man. =)) =))

Anyway I'm off now, I still have to memorize FIVE stanzas out of the 11-stanza piece our teacher has given us, so good luck to me & I still don't know when it's due, but prepared is much better. Go me! Muhahaha.

And I don't have any icon to put, cause my brother reformatted the comp again, and I have NO time to look for icons & pics. So no icon for this post. :( But there's still a song. Hahahhaa.

On a High

I'm on a high, I'm on a high
there's nothing more to it.
We are the sea and the sky
and the blue that runs through it, yeah.

and there are some who say there are so many things I need
so I run or I fight and I crawl or I scream and I bleed
I bleed, I bleed

well, it's a lie it's a lie - don't you believe it.
if you're fine then you're fine - it's all how you see it.
oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness.

I'm on a high I'm on a high
and there's nothing more to it
I have the sun, it's a star
why should I refuse it

and there are so many reasons I could give you why I should be down
there's not enough money or time and my love you're not around
around, around

but it's a lie it's a lie - don't you believe it.
if you're fine then you're fine - it's all how you see it.
oh, there never will be no conspiracy of happiness.

you're alive you're alive - how else could you hear me?
you are fine, you are fine - there's nothing worth fearing
'cause there never will be no conspiracy of happiness

I'm on a high, on a high
we are the sea and the sky
I'm on a high, on a high
I'm on a high

It's a lie, It's a lie don't you believe it
'Cause I've tried and I've tried, and I can't really see it
Yeah, I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness
said I was yours, you were mine but I didn't really mean it
and I lied and I lied
and I wish you hadn't seen it
'cause I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness
I'm on a high, on a high, there's nothing more to it, yeah

Cause I'm trapped inside my conspiracy of happiness,
Eunice

school

2006-06-24T00:04:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. Long time, no entry, or post. Whatever. =)) =))

Wow, school has been busy & frustrating, these past three weeks (I think).

It was also fun, hanging out with friends & hysterical laughs. =)) =)) I got called twice by our Science teacher, for laughing so loud, and got caught by my Filipino teacher demonstrating to my classmate on how Filipino's greet foreigners. =)) =)) And we played ping-pong during recess today, it was fun, using the eraser as a ball. =)) =)) Haha, Luigi.

And ohhhh, I found something about the two very intimate people in our class. Haha, the two who shall not be named, because for surem they wouldn't want it to be all over school. I knew they'd be together, cause the very first time I saw them, it was like there was connection. :)) :)) Goodluck. Wahaha.

And uhm what else? I've been pretty okay with the subjects, only I SUCK at Business Math. My bestfriend is really good in that subject, so I am letting her tutor me. =)) =)) =))

Ohh, and drafting has been... frustrating. Eversince I took up guitar lessons, my hand keep shaking pretty bad. And too bad, we were doing freehand exercises, so technically, no rulers. When I was tracing, my lines were straight and some were crooked. Ugh... do we really need drafting? :-<>

Just shoot me, will you?
I'm so tired of doing the same things over again
I'm so tired of having the same kinds of pain
Just stab me, will you?
Let me out from this hell hole
Cause it's tearing me apart not making me whole.
Just shoot me, will you?
Point a gun to my head I
don't care if I'm dead.
This was only wishful thinking.

( I wrote it, don't know why.)

Say what you mean & trust no one,
♥♥Eunice

school

2006-06-09T23:15:00.000-07:00

Okay, I know I said I would blog yesterday, but the thought of having 5 assignments on the first day, never crossed my mind. =)) =))

Okay first day, it was... okay. Almost all of our teachers our new, only one teacher is an old one, by old I mean a past teacher. =)) =))

It was going well until I got scolded by our teacher. >:P It wasn't my fault that he talks so gay & says random things while we were asking questions related to the subject, and it wasn't my fault that he loves the color LAVENDER so much, for a "guy". =)) =)) I went laughing like really hard, along with my other friends. =))

The teachers are all nice, but just a bit strict because we belong daw in the "first section." Psh, as if. And for me, it's not a reason to give hard assignments because we belong in that section. They are funny, it's just the assignments they gave us, you have to go to the library and research for it, because you can seldom find it in the internet. And our Filipino teacher wanted us to make our research photocopied, like what the hell?!! You can just do copy-paste from the internet and print it. Crap. ( Okay, so I edited that, it' was originally &!@# but I changed it. =)) )

Whatever. L-)

We did the meet & greet with our classmates. Again. For the 10th time in my school life. :-<>:) >:)

So that's everything that almost happened yesterday, I'm tamad to type, in fact my eyes are a bit blurry, from doing assignments and walking from building to another building and streets to another. >:P

Oh yes, today was fun! I was high to day or extremely hyper today. =)) I was saying 'Hi!' to whoever who walks in front of me and keeps laughing for random things. =)) 8-|

And I keep teasing my friend, Luigi, on how he looks just like Lazaro and he was pissed, so we kept arguing until Mr. Yepez came.

Filipino was...uhmm..serious. =)) We had our very first seatwork from our first subject. Everyone paid attention since our teacher was serious when he was discussing. It was pretty easy, but I didn't exactly got the point because I'm always looking for a difficult answer, when the answer is right in front of me. Dunno what happened to me in paying attention or concentrating, it's between the two. :D

Then Math came, I was surprised the topic was easy, you just have to follow the instructions. I'm not like overly surprised, because I know first quarters are like the easy round in Math, I mean from the first 3 notes. :)) We have an assignment in Math, Linear Equations.

Next was Bio or Biology. Whatever, Mr. Lavender boy. =)) =)) Actually his real name is Norwell, weird, like Norland or something but anyway, he wanted us to call him "Sir Javerne" meaning "lovebirds" or was it "lovers"? I wasn't really paying attention when he was mentioning his "nickname", because we were laughing. =)) =)) Oh my, he's the worst, he forgets everything he says. =)) =)) Yesterday he told us to cover our Quiz Notebook Violet and put designs about Biology, and then today he repeated it again, only he said that our NOTEBOOK was the one that should be covered in Violet with Bio designs. Everyone started whining, because they had already put their covers on the QUIZ NOTEBOOK. When everyone was complaining (including me, of course) he was like deadma. :| Ugh. Gay people can sometimes be...so gay-ish. =)) =))

Then next is Business Math, dun dun dun dun.... we had to make a poster on what we think about Business Math. So it took us to make the poster like the whole time up to Lunch, I'll skip the Lunch part, nothing exciting happened.

Anyway, when we got back some of our classmates are still making the projects, and some are just fooling around walking along the corridors. Me and my friends, were in the classroom so our debate ( me & Luigi) about how he looks like this guy from school continued and he hit me at the back and my friend, Kat, was saying something to him and he wasn't paying attention, so Kat hit him with their poster which was covered in color pastels, so his uniform was, a bit colorful. =)) =)) ;;)

Then after that we made an essay in English, about our three most important wishes in our lives, it was a bit hard, when you want a lot of things, but then sometimes when you think of your wishes, most of them are not as important as the others, that maybe if by luck or chance, you can have them.

Then T.L.E. came, it was fun!, we played a game and I got a +2 on my quiz. Bwahahhaa. >:) Then we copied notes. That's all. ;)

Then last subject came, History. We didn't do anything in that subject, we just elected class officers. And I got elected as Vice President! Thanks to my loyal friends, and thanks to my other friends who blackmailed my other classmates in voting for me. Kidding. =)) =)) I don't know if I was happy or maybe a bit overwhelmed that I was elected because I never even wished to be Vice President, I was always a treasurer or in a lower position. I wanted the Secretary position because, I think I did a good job last year when I was elected, but Vice President?!! Uhmm, it's not really for me. =)) =)) But thanks to my classmates who voted for me, I am still happy, because I got to be elected. ;;) =)) =)) Oh I totally forgot I have to read 32 pages pala about Asian History in our book. Yes, fun. 8-|

I promise to do a good job. Whatever. L-)

So that's the end. My post is really long I can tell. :))

Look After You

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you
And I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

Funny. :))

Shoutouts to friends:

Nina- Welcome back home! Sorry I didn't get to call you back yesterday, because of the freaking assignments.

Luigi & Eric- Madaya kayo! You didn't invite us to meet with Abad! Pero there's always next time. Bwahaha. >:)

My heart has started to separate,
Eunice

Maybe the last post

2006-06-07T17:47:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. :)

"This is the end of Summer." :-S

I decided to post, this might be my last post. But I promise to blog tomorrow after school, since for sure, it's introduction of the new teachers. Again. *RawR* But I hate it when it's the meet & greet part because you have to speak in front of the class, if ever the teacher is new, with my old classmates. My point is, what's there to say about, when you've been with them last year? Ugh. Teachers can be annoyin aaaannnnnd demanding.

I will, for sure, miss late nights, phone calls for 3 hours :)) & long hours on the internet. :(( :-<>prepared. Of what is ahead of me, especially in Math. Business Math. Is Business Math hard? Anyone? I need an answer from an average student, not from a nerd & definitely not from a lazy person. =)) =))

I've been reading "Florante & Laura" and I finished it. Though, it was a bit... unreadable. It was because they have profound Tagalog words, which you'd barely understand, because it was... profound. =)) =)) Repetitive much? =)) =))

I swear, it's more profound than "Ibong Adarna" glad there was a summary. >:) I don't understand why they have to make it all rhymed when it's just a story. And Laura doesn't even appear in most of it. She was just the girl Florante fell in love with. And after watching Brokeback Mountain, Florante & Aladin in the woods kind of reminded me of the two guys in Brokeback Mountain. Can you say destiny? =)) =)) =)) I crack myself up. 8-| ;;)

Whatever. :))

I wish my brother comes home here. Like now. I can't stand being alone here, emotionally. At least if he goes home here, we share the pain, equally. Wahaha. Maybe that's why my dad's like mad at me all the time is because my brother's not here to catch all his anger that's why it's all on me. >:) I understand him. Whatever. At least if he comes home here now, I'll get what's really for me. ;;)

I swear, yesterday I almost exploded from my anger. It's because of my dad again. He says so many things, that are too much to handle, at least for me. He is always saying things, that pretty much were about him & my mom and has nothing to with me. I just don't get it. Eversince my mom left, it was always about her. Since then all the decisions, that my dad made was all because of my mom, all for my mom. The decisions of my dad was always, how to get a way to get to her or get a way to be near to her. It was always her and never us. As a family. The decisions sometimes, doesn't matter anymore, how would it, when the one person you're doing it for, doesn't even care about the decisions or plans you've set? Doesn't even value the time you've spent or you've lost? It's just weird. Because no matter how hard you try, if she's not with you, it will never work.

I just remembered a line from X-Men 3, " If you're with us, then be with us."

I don't wanna cry anymore, I don't wanna let my feelings get in the way, because if I do, it will all be for nothing, it will all be worthless. Might as well be apathetic. Because that way, no one can tell if you're happy or sad about it, that way no one will care if you're smiling or frowning.

I am not a Kelly Clarkson fan, her song just kind of reminded me of everything that's been happening 6 years ago upto now. (And I'm playing her song for the last hour.)

Because of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
you felt so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Ironic isn't it?
( Watching sad movies can still make me cry. And that's one way I could release everything.)

You never thought of anyone else, you just saw your own pain,
Eunice

Whoa

2006-06-04T22:20:00.000-07:00

Hey. Wow, I haven't blog for 3 days, though something nice happened to me for the past 3 days. :))

Well I'll give you a little something on what happened. :))

June 01, 2006

My Dad went to the province to fix smething about the lot, don't know what was that about. So I was alone in the house, technically I wasn't alone, my sister's with me, but then I was alone because my Dad wasn't there. =)) =)) I was alone most of the time, because my sister has this review thing for nursing, so she still goes to school. Freedom at last! >:) All I did that day was watch T.V. & surf on the internet all day. It was fun, and I met a lot of people that day, maybe like 6 new people. \:D/

June 02, 2006

I was alone again that day, because my Dad stayed until Saturday in the province, so I'm only with my sister since my uncle went to Subic for a company outing. \:D/ It was sad though I was alone, no one to talk to. :(( Haha. But anyway my OL friends were ther so I chatted with them non-stop. :)) I met new people na naman in a confe, a confe in which Mara invited me to join. It was fun. ;))

June 03, 2006

My dad came home late in the afternoon. So freedom for only 2 days. :)) :)) It was independently fun, if you can say that. =)) =)) I have a new OL friend that I was chatting with since Thursday night, Jae or JR. =)) =)) Whatever. We viewed our webcams, and he was getting "torpe" daw, because I keep telling him to smile because he was serious. :)) Sorry Jae. Peace. >:)

Anyway those 3 days were boring but fun.

And today, there was a brown out for 4 hours I think. Amp. Hate it when there's long brown outs. >:) And because of that I didn't get to watch LB. RawR. =)) =))

And because of that brown out, I slept until 4 in the afternoon, and around 6, electricity went on. Haha, so I'm back on the internet again. Anyway I've been downloading Yellowcard songs. And Charlie Wilson's Without You, it was an old song, I heard Kyla sang it and I loved it. Again. :))

Without You

Mmm...hmm...

It feels like a lifetime, a thousand days have passed
by
Since I held you close to me
If I could see that smile from my friend
I know that I could live again
I need you here with me

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you’re so far away
I hope and I pray
Somewhere in your heart I’ll always stay

Girl, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breath in
my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine, sun doesn’t shine without
you

This is more for me than for you
Girl, I finally see there’s no substitute
For what we have
Do you know how much I love you

Heaven knows what to say
Even though for right now you’re so far away
Gonna tell you and show you
Do whatever I can do to get back to you

Girl, lately my sun doesn’t shine without you
Never noticed what it feels like to be without you
Feels like I took my last step and my last breath in
my life ending
Had to say just what I was feeling, girl
‘Cause my sun doesn’t shine, sun doesn’t shine
without you

My sun doesn't shine without you,
Eunice

XMen

2006-05-31T23:00:00.000-07:00

I'm posting for yesterday, since something exciting happened yesterday ( May 31 ). Weird. Anyway, I'm gonna use yesterday's date, so it won't be a double post, if something good happens. Again. :))

The day before yesterday my brother went home. And I was happy, I don't know why I'm happy when he's around, maybe because the "lessons" of my dad wouldn't be all on ME. Haha. :)) Anyway he went home then yesterday, My dad, my brother & I went out to watch X- Men 3: The Last Stand. It was full of action that's all I can say. And I cried 8-| when Professor X died. Wahh. Well anyway, it was really dissapointing that the HOTTEST guy in X-Men had a short, short part, you know, Cyclops. He's hott!! :)) :)) Do you guys think that Magneto will have his power back??? :-/

Anyway, my brother brought like a laptop case yesterday, it's because the company are giving laptops to their employee. He has a new job. Again. He doesn't last like 6 months in any company that he has worked in. :)) :)) So..... that. :))

Hmm, short post. Again.

Anyway I watched LB last night, I thought Alex M. was gonna punch Jessica on the face!!! :)) :)) Anyway that would be hilarious. :)) It wasn't Jess's fault that Jayson kissed her, I swear that guy is an ass! :)) :)) But I'm upset with Kristin, she doesn't have Jess's back. Cause her and her other friend Alex were talking in the bathroom and Alex said like " I feel bad for Jess she really does wanna hang out with us" then Kristin was like " I DON'T CARE!". Serously, she has to have an attitude makeover, Jess IS her bestfriend, but she rns up to Alex M. just like that. It's not like it was Jess's fault when Jayson still wants her. It's not HER fault she's hot. I'm definitely gonna kick Jayson's ass!! >:) They went to Cabo by the way!!! Fun!! Summer Looooove!

Aware, Rust & Repair

Away
How hard can it be away?
I promise I'll be just fine
Avoiding the paths you take

You have to try to make this easy
You have to try for me
Sometimes I'm scared that things could be
So much better than this
What's best is not right
Sometimes I wish that we could be
So much closer than this
But I won't look up when you walk away

Away
Just tell me you'll stay away
It's so hard to act surprised
You never look down when I'm gone

You have to try to make this easy
You have to try for me
Sometimes I'm scared that things could be
So much better than this
What's best is not right
Sometimes I wish that we could be
So much closer than this
But I won't look up when you walk away

Cabo, Cabo, Cabo!

Sometimes I'm scared that things could be better than this,
Eunice

HMMM

2006-05-29T23:00:00.000-07:00

Hey. Hey. Hey. =)) =))

I just noticed I'm posting every other day now. Aaannnddd I just noticed that something good happens every other day. Wahaha.

I finished guitar lessons today, dunno if I'm happy about that or sad. Maybe happy & sad. Happy, because I don't have to practice every single day for some song, and sad, because I'm gonna miss going there every Tuesday & Saturday and I'm gonna miss being neurotic. =)) =)) But it's not actually finished, I finished the Classical, but not Acoustic. If you classify it onto stages I techinically finished Level 1 going to Level 2. But I don't think I would be learning Acoustic, cause my dad said school is near, so I have to focus. 8-| But anyway, I just hated that I ended it in the most exciting part (for me at least). I'm supposedly starting to learn how to play a song without actually knowing what song it is. You know like I'm gonna know how to play it by rhythm and by notes. But sadly, it has to end with pluckings, which totally sucked! XD =)) =))

Anyway today was...was.. okay. Uhm, I didn't do anything today I just downloaded tons of songs, I have a new favorite band, Motion City Soundtrack. I know their name sounds different. Different because if you don't know them, you'll probably think they are from some movie soundtrack, basically because the word "soundtrack" is a part of their name. Wow, rambling. :)) :))

And I watched Project Runway today. It was hilarious! At least Jay and Nora were. =)) =)) They were imitating Heidi Klum on the way she talks "It's either you're in or you're out." It was soo funny. They were all ganging up on Wendy though, poor Wendy-NOT! =)) =)) And Vanessa Riley walked out on them, she was upset,maybe, because she didn't get in the final 3.

Ohh, I hated someone today. She-who-shall-not-be-named. She can be so irrating & so dominant, like she owns everything. well she clearly doesn't. Like I said before, she's so dominant that she thinks everything would follow her as she expects. I'm gonna stop, before I tell who she is.

Anyway, I'm off. I know I said MCS is my new fave band but Hellogoodbye rocks too! :P

Call & Return

you promised me starry night skies
they just remind me of your shining bright eyes
im missing your voice at night time
this sepa-separation seem-seems a sad crime

b-b-b-but dont dont dont think think think i forgot you you you
are are are oh so sweet i i i - i know

if only you were here
things would be more magical

if i was there
right now would be more radical

youre so not near
im wishing i could place a call

and feel closer to you ooo-ooo

the miles of air and road and land
that separate me from all my plans
were havin' havin' havin' havin' fun
but something something tells me i miss someone

b-but i hope hope hope you didn't forget me i couldn't
forget you the whole time i always knew i knew

say that youre into me just let me know how it will be
if you dont know dont say so
ill wait till the perfect time think of all the perfect lines
ill make sure if i let you know

weve got movies on our list to see
things to do just you and me
calls to make from here to there and back
weve got fun to have and days to spend
stars to see or just pretend
at least for now just keep things right on track

You promised starry night skies,
Eunice

OMG

2006-05-27T23:45:00.000-07:00

Today was super fun! :D

I learned a lot of new stuff today and chatted with cousins, friends & my mom.

Guitar lessons was in the afternoon, because my teacher couldn't make it in the morning. I was informed yesterday by Isabelle, the secretary, that he wouldn't make it in the morning. I love that I take the lessons on mornings though, because I have time to practice & at the same time surf on the net. =)) =))

Anyway today was fun, not that chaotic. I really had a great time talking with my mom, she's in N.Y. by the way, she says the funniest things. :)) I kinda miss my mom's sense of humor, since she's not around for almost 6 years. But my dad's here to keep the fun alive. Whatevs. :)) :))

I practiced for guitar a bit, then ate lunch & went to my guitar lessons. Today I wasn't as nervous as before, but still I get clammy and all. :)) While I was doing the exercise, my teacher played a piece that was made in the 1800's which was a looong, loong time. He played it really good. I remember the date that it was made between 1854-1929. something like that.

then I played the Gallop again, I really can't get the timing of the song, that's why I played it for 5 times, but I'm gonna practice tomorrow and hopefully get better. :P Then after that I played the Slur Waltz which was pretty hard because of the "hammering" of the strings. :-<>

Here is Gone

You and I got something
But it's all and then it's nothing to me - yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes to your intentions for me - yeah
And we wake up in the breakdown of the things we never thought we could be -
yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really every there at all

And i want to get free talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be all you need
Somehow here is gone

I have no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me - yeah
And i was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me - yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
What do you got to move you darling
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really every there at all

And I want to get free talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be all you need
Somehow here is gone

And I don't need the fallout of all the past
That's here between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be all you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free talk to me
I can feel you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
I can feel you falling
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone- yeah
I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone- yeah

You were never really there at all,
Eunice

Hey

2006-05-25T22:50:00.000-07:00

Today was OKAY. Fun. :)) Smile. :D

First I woke up around 10, then ate cereals. :) Then after that computer muna. :)) But I'm done around 2, then guitar for a bit then I learned na how to play Blind by Lifehouse. :> :)) :))

Today I was very tamad, all I do was sleep, no one's online that's why. :(

Only Alex. We were crazy about smileys... AGAIN. =)) And audibles. :))

Sorry if my post is too short, I really didn't do anything today and nothing major happened, I'm thankful for that, I guess. >:)

Since I knew how to play this on my guitar it's my song for the day!!! =))

Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

( The reason why the icon is like that because of the song!! =)) =)) You get the symmetry.=)) I crack myself up)

I can't explain what you can't explain,
Eunice

wahh

2006-05-24T23:37:00.000-07:00

Last night, I was tamad to type. :)) So I'm posting right now. (May 25, 2006) But I just used yesterday's date so that it won't be a double post for today. :D

Yesterday was fun, I got to download everything I have to and get the pictures I wanted. :>

And chatting in YM was so fun, the laughing smiley was contagious!!! :)) ( Isn't that right Trina?!!) :))
I chatted with Iza first and we were laughing like crazy about the stuff we were talking about, she was telling me that she's good in memorizing Chines but she's not good in communicating, and we were both laughing hard. And we decided to make an account for the two of us and the email address was onlinebestfriends and we both loved it! :)) I actually just signed up in Yahoo for the email. :))

And then there was Trina, we were talking about music and about Goo Goo Dolls and so much more bands.

Trina: How about you, did you eat already?
Eunice: Just cereals, I could eat cereals everyday. :))
Trina: Do you know the song milk & cereal?
Eunice: No. Is it a nice song? :D
Trina: It's nonsense but it's nice.
Trina: :))
Eunice: How can it be nice if it's nonsense? =))
Trina: You'll see. :))

And then she told me about their neighbor who has the hottest car in Lipa, turns out he has the snottiest music taste ever!!! =)) =)) She said her neighbor has like a loud speaker, and the songs they play there are like "Kapag Tumibok ang Puso" and "Mr. DJ". It was hilarious!!! =)) and the neighbor's friends are all dancing. =)) =))

Anyway, then around 7 or 8 I think, Alex just buzzed me in YM.

Eunice: Bored ka noh?
Eunice: :))
Alexx: :))
Alexx: Not really. Wala lang. :))

The reason why I always ask her if she's bored, is because the only time she buzzes me is when she's bored. :)) She's mean. :)) :))
Then the smiley marathon came, whenever I say something we use the laughing smiley and the ROTFL smiley and the batting eylashes!! We love smileys. :D

Since I'm talking all about smileys right now, I just think this fits. :)

Smile Like You Mean It :)

Save some face, you know you've only got one
Change your ways while you're young
Boy, one day you'll be a man
Oh girl, he'll help you understand
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
We lost track of the time
Dreams aren't what they used to be
Some things sat by so carelessly

Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

And someone is calling my name
From the back of the restaurant
And someone is playing a game
In the house that I grew up in
And someone will drive her around
Down the same streets that I did
On the same streets that I did

Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it
Smile like you mean it

Oh no, oh no no no
Oh no, oh no no no

--- I love Teddy Geiger!! :)) :x That was just random. :))

If I don't say this now I will surely break,
Eunice

another post

2006-05-23T23:29:00.000-07:00

Hey, I forgot to post yesterday, so I'm just postig for today, since I forgot what I did yesterday. :))

Anyway, today was lame. I did nothing, except go to my guitar lessons and internet all day. :-<

First, I woke up around 7 and then watched a little news, since I'm completely oblivious on what's happening to the world because I'm in front of the computer any time and any day. =)) =)) After that, I ate breakfast, then computer, chatted with Tatum and my mom, then with Luiza. Tatum and I talked about new songs, and this song that I really love I just don't know the title, but now I know because of her, it's Half Life by Duncan Shiek. It's a sad song, but has good lyrics. Then Luiza and I talked about Teddy Geiger's For You I Will video and exchanged songs, actually every song she has on her limewire are also in mine too, though some of it got deleted because my computer was reformatted. :(

After that, I went to my guitar lessons with my dad and my sister, around 3, and then I felt nervous...again. But then it was less compared to the other meetings. I played the Gallop again and after that my teacher wanted me to play the Slur Wlatz, which I totally did not get, but anyway I figured maybe I'm not really into the whole notes thing, you know the whole note, quarter note stuff, basta I don't get it that much, but I'm trying though. =)) =)) Anyway, after that I played Should I Stay or Go, and I was surprised because I can quickly transfer my finger from G to F chord, that I didn't get here in our home. :)) Weird. =))

I don't know what happened to me this day, I'm all moody again, I guess I became moody since I started highschool, I mean, I'm always pissed about something that I shouldn't have. Hayyy... My dad and my sister are like the Ranting Combo! They're like rant here, rant there, that sometimes I don't wanna go with them to anywhere, because I end up getting so pissed.

My sister is like my dad's child and my brother's like my mom's and I'm, I'm neither I guess. :)) Maybe I'm adopted or something! :)) 8-|

I just don't see myself as my dad, I mean I'm nothing like my sister either, she's like the most organized person and she takes after my dad, actually when the 3 of us are left in the house she's like my dad, only 10 times worse. She's the person who could make me do things that my dad couldn't make me. =)) =))

And my brother takes after my mom, he's all like with the social stuff which I'm not interested, he goes out a lot, and knows a lot of people like my mom. And like my mom, he's dated many people. And he's hard-heade like my mom. ( it's not like she could read this) =)) =)) =)) And me... I'm different. Different from them... I guess there are things we have in common but not a lot. Like from my dad, I got this whole be-quiet-and-people-will-like-you type while I got this love for fashion and passion for reading from my mom. Some says, I take after my dad, but I doubt that, and some says from my mom, and I doubt that either.

I'm different I think, from our family, but then when I look at like my relatives I see some from them too, like my passion for singing and music.

Wahhhhh...

Anyway, I'm off now, dad's gonna be back in like an hour, so I don't want to get scolded, because I have had enough earlier. :))

Half Life

I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

Lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

Something here don't feel right,
Eunice

another posst

2006-05-21T23:35:00.000-07:00

It's 11 already, but I'm still not in bed. :)) :))

My Dad's out for the night, and my sister's busy studying, so I'm all alone in the room. :))

Anyway, I watched Laguna Beach today, it was nice. But I hate Jason, he's the meanest boyfriend ever! He's cheating on Jessica, but Jessica doesn;t seem to mind, or at least she's avoiding the fact that it's true that he was cheating on her. He was completely ignoring Jess, when they're supposed to hang out and he stood her up. I don't know what she sees in that guy, he's nothing but a player and hits on anyone he sees, pretty or not, don't get me wrong but I totally think Alex M. is so not pretty! And it was their winter formal and Jason went with Alex instead of Jessica. I really felt bad for her.

And when they got there in the Winter Formal and Jessica was like talking to him and he told her to fucking shut up! I mean, who keeps up with that kind of guy? I know- Jessica. =)) =))

And Alex was so mean to Jessica, cause they accidentally met in some Nail Spa and Alex was like " I'm going to Winter Formal with Jayson and it's gonna be so much fun!" while Jessica and Kristin were there.

Anyway then after that, my sister came home, then I chatted with mom, and then I don't know listened to Rihanna songs!! I love SOS talaga!! :)) :))

I'm toast,
Eunice =))

shut it.

2006-05-20T23:07:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. My night ended pretty sad. :(

Anyway, today was lame. Riiight. It's not like any other day was not. :))

I went to guitar lessons today, and for once I kind of enjoyed it. :-O Haha. I practiced the harmonics, again. Well I didn't really practice it that MUCH in our house, cause I focused more on the ending of Iris. :)) Anyways, my teacher wants me to play a song from The Clash!!! I love that band, though I know some of their songs only, anyways if you don't know The Clash, they're a band from the 70's or 80's I think, along with the Sex Pistols and The Ramones and so much more punk bands. He wanted me to play Should I Stay or Go by The Clash. I'm glad it was a real song not the one that I play with all the plucking and everything which I hate, oookay, that was a little harsh, let's make it "the one I don't like". =))

Then after that we looked for new guitars, cause I want a new one, actually my dad's in a good mood, and by good mood I refer to no ranting and such evil comments. :)) So actually he was the one who wanted to buy a new one, he's a lot more excited than me actually, dunno why. 8-| I wasn't really the jovial type when he was asking what kind of guitar, I just told him I wanted an electric/acoustic guitar and whenever he asks other stuff about it, I just nod. >:) I don't know if he's gonna buy me a new one, he changes his mood in just like that. *fingers snap* 8-| :-< style="font-style: italic;">normal person wouldn't even mind thinking about. :)) Like The OC and uhmm, a lot, just a lot. :))

So then I decided to get on the computer, agaiiin. Haha. Anyway I was chatting with Luiza earlier, then Trina just showed up from nowhere. :)) She sent me the link of Brandon Davis and Paris Hilton . They were so hiiiigghhhh!!!! 8-| Especially Brandon. He was like making nasty comments about Lindsay's "thinggy" and Paris just kept laughing all the way. I can tell Brandon was sooo high along with Paris, is because his eyes kept wandering wherever while talking and when reporters were asking him what he thinks about Lindsay Lohan he just kept talking and talking. Anyway maybe that's the reason Mischa and Paris are fighting, maybe because of Brandon. Brandon was Mischa's ex, they dated for a year I think and now that Mischa currently dated Cisco, whose ex-girlfriend was Kimberly Stewart's ex and who happens to be Paris Hilton's friend. Wow that's what I call "SMALL WORLD" . There are like so many guys there who's hotter than Brandon and Cisco ( in fact he's not hot at all :)) :)) :)) L-) ) but still they keep fighting over the same guys. And let me tell you Brandon is so NOT hot, he's like one of Snow White's dwarfs. :)) I know I'm mean. =)) =)). Wow... and that's what I call rambling. =)) =)) =))

Anyway then after that Iza, sent me the link to Marissa's death, I mean the video. When I was watching the video, I was crying, NK. :)) :((. Gosh, I'm insane!!! Wahh, I swear if I see Josh Schwartz I'm gonna kill him!! Anyway I don't wanna explain further of why or what was I crying about. If you've read my recent post you would know. :P

Then after that I listened to Rihanna and PCD songs, actually I'm istening to SOS right now!!! I love SOS!!!

Anyway here's SOS.. <33333

SOS ( Rescue Me)

Lalala lalala la la lala la Ohhh

You know I never felt like this before

Lalala lalala la la lala la Ohhh

Feels like, so real

[Verse 1]

I'm obessive when just one thought of you comes up

And I'm agressive just one thought ain't close enough

You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue

'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you

I'm the question and you're of course the answer

Just hold me close boy, 'cause I'm your tiny dancer

You make me shaken, I'm never mistaken

But I can't control myself got me calling out for help

[Chorus]

S.O.S. please someone help me, it's not healthy for me to feel this

Y.O.U. are making this hard, I can't take it see, it don't feel right

S.O.S. please someone help me, it's not healthy for me to feel this

Y.O.U. are making this hard, you got me tossin' and turnin', can't sleep at night

[Bridge]

This time please someone come and rescue me

cause you on my mind has got me losing it

I'm lost, you got me lookin for the rest of me

Love is testing me but still I'm losing it

This time please some one come and rescue me

'cause you on my mind has got me losing it,

I'm lost you got me looking for the rest of me,

Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it.

[Verse 2]

Just your presence and I second guess my sanity,

Yes, it's a lesson and it's unfair you stole my vanity,

My tummy's up in knots and when I see ya it gets so hot

Common sense is out the door, can't seem to find a lock

Take on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right

Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight!

I melt with you, ya got me head over heels, (over heels)

boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel

[Chorus]

S-O-S, please someone help me.

It's not healthy for me to feel this

Y-O-U are making this hard?

You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night.

[Bridge]

This time please someone come and rescue me

'cause you on my mind has got me losing it

I'm lost, you got me lookin for the rest of me

Love is testing me but still I'm losing it

This time please some one come and rescue me

'cause you on my mind has got me losing it,

I'm lost you got me looking for the rest of me,

Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it.

[Verse 3:]

Boy you know you got me feeling open and

Boy our loves enough with words unspoken

I said BOY I'm telling you, you got me open,

I don't know what to do it's true, I'm going crazy over you,

I'm begging

[Chorus]

S-O-S, please someone help me (somebody help me)

It's not healthy for me to feel this

Y-O-U are making this hard?

You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night.

[Bridge]

This time please someone come and rescue me

cause you on my mind has got me losing it

I'm lost, you got me lookin for the rest of me

Love is testing me but still I'm losing it

This time please some one come and rescue me

'cause you on my mind has got me losing it,

I'm lost you got me looking for the rest of me,

Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it.

[Outro]

Lalala, lalala, lalalalala, Ohhh,

Oh Oh

Lalala, lalala, lalalalala, Ohhh,

Oh Oh

You got me tossin' and turnin' can't sleep at night,
Eunice

OMG

2006-05-19T13:20:00.000-07:00

OMG, OMG, OMG! :((

As many of you don't know, this is the last day of The OC Season 3. And I cried, bawled maybe when I was on front of the computer, when I read that Marissa is dead! :((

The only reason, why I'm still watching the show is because I'm hoping that Ryan and Marissa get back together, but how could they when she's already dead?!! I was so sad, when she died in the car crash. That stupid ass hat Volchok killed her. She was with Ryan, and their car tumbled, because Volchok was kind of like hitting their car. And then she was gone, and they had flashbacks from Season 1 and 2 and it was sooo sad!

I would gladly accept that she's dead, if her and Ryan had so many good moment together and if they got back together this season and if they exchaned I Love You's with each other, and sadly they didn't.

I swear to God, that their ratings are gonna be so low, because they killed Marissa.

Wahh, I'm so pissed right now. Why did they have to kill her? And why didn't Ryan and Marissa get back together? I'm so sad, for the both of them especially for Ryan. she's the only person who understood him, and loved him all the way and same goes for Marissa.

And another thing that I'm pissed of is because they never got the chance to be happy, they never got the chance to be normal for once. :((

I know I'm being such a loser for crying for The OC, it's just that I was attached to this show like so much, my week isn't complete if I didn't get to watch the show. I know this isn't like in real life or whatever but still, it became like something that never slipped out of my mind, most of the time I'm wondering what will happen to both of them and now, it's just Ryan, who is completely worthless watching without Marissa.

I'd rather see her in a coma than not to see her at all.

Seth: And that was the last they ever saw of her.

Dying

I'm Dying, Dying to wake up without you, without you in my head again 
I'm Dying, Dying to forget about you, that you ever lived 
There's a shade come over this heart that's coping with laying down to rest 
I'm Dying to live without you again 

I'm Dying, Dying to find a distraction, get you away from me 
I'm Dying, Dying to reach a conclusion, so that the world can see 
It's the same old story of love and glory that broke before it bent 
I'm Dying to live without you again 

The first time you left I said goodbye 
Now there's not a prayer that can survive 

Dying, Dying to die just to come back so we can meet again 
Dying, Dying to say what I always should have said 
It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this 
As long as there's a breath... 
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again 

It's a strange emotion this but there's still hope in this 
As long as there's a breath... 

I'm Dying and I can't live without you 
I'm Dying and I can't live without you again

---I just thought the song perfectly fits for them both. :((

Dying,
Eunice

nothing to say

2006-05-18T23:30:00.000-07:00

I'm eating right now. :))

Well anyway, I started the day by going to church then after that I slept until 11 I think. :)) Then computer again, If I can't get to use the internet for a whole day, I would go insane! :))

After that I practiced guitar until 2 p.m. and then slept until 5:30 p.m. I was supposed to wake up at 3:30 p.m. but hey, I added 2 more hours. =))

After I woke up, I played the guitar, so I won't be forgetting how to play the piece again. Anyhow, I was talking to my friend a while ago, like around 7 p.m. I gues, then she asked for favors, TWICE, this day. :|

And yeah, my sister got her diploma yesterday, I just forgot to mention last night when I posted, and she also got her grad. pic. She looks different, like hilariously different. =)) I was laughing when I saw her picture so we bantered. :))

And if you haven't noticed I changed my blog title or heading, whatever. 8-| It's now Sugar High, with the boxes on the side. Sugar High dominates. :)) Well anyway, I broke my blog again, I was deleting something from it and when I republished it, there's like a paragraph about the designer I think which never apperead before. Stupid me. :))

And then, while I was in my room I received a text message from my teacher asking me if my former classmate, Czharisse, would still be studying in our school. I said I'm not quite sure because the last time we talked she said she took an exam in San Agustin.

I just don't get it, why pretty girls get to have more attention or teachers are becoming bias when you have "the looks". 8-|

And I'm being ironic again. before I was the one telling my dad to enroll me in guitar lessons and now I'm also the one who wants to quit. :( I just don't get myself, I could stay for more than 10 hours without interruption in front of the computer, but when it comes to guitar I can't even seem to be focused for more than an hour. I'm easily distracted. =))

I'm listening to Mandy Moore...again. :D

And my dad's rants, are being inevitable since I don't know when. Wow, that's a shocker! 8-| =))

Over My Head

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

I never knew that eveything was falling through,
Eunice

another post

2006-05-17T23:45:00.000-07:00

Yes, I finished another miserable day. It's not that bad, but still miserable. :))

First off, I woke up around 7 a.m. ( I don't know what's up with me these days, eversince I went to QC and started waking up early it became like a habit.) and fixed my hair then wash my face and you can figure the next...

Then I ate cereals, I like cereals better for breakfast than any other meal, then practiced guitar for a bit. I hate it that I have to follow the strumming patterns when one of my cousin's friend, Jill, said that it depends on how you hear it, so I'm really trying hard to get it, but I'm easily distracted. :))

Then it's computer time!! :)) I just noticed that I could spend like 9 or 10 hours straight in front of the computer. Haha. I'm worried for myself though, I could maybe wear glasses when I'm like 15 or something. :))

After long hours on the computer, dad asked me to come with him to the bank. When we got there, I saw like 3 guys wearing girls' outfit, so to make it simple they're gays, so you decide guys or gays? God, I crack myself up. 8-| To make it clear, I'm not like anti to bisexual people, I mean I'm totally fine with gays in fact they're like the most carefree people in the world but then when I see gays dressed as in like in a woman's clothes I feel like I'm going to puke or something. It's just not appropriate at many levels, first it's because some people are mistaken them as being a true woman, yet they feel grateful for that and second, they wear skimpy outfits to look like a total woman which sometimes you find totally disgusting. Anyway enough of that. :-&

Then after that we went back home and then computer again, then chatted with a few people and went to sleep. Then after that I went to our church to do some stuff and went to Nanay's house then watched T.V. then went back home.

I was watching Beach Girls earlier, it's a new T.V. show in ETC. In my opinion, it's not ver appealing to me, I didn't smile when I saw it coming unlike the first time I saw the OC or OTH on T.V. they gave me goosebumps. There's something off about that show, I just don't know what. But then there are a lot of episodes coming up, so I hope it will be a lot better.

I chatted with Iza, Luiza, earlier tonight. I like to call her Iza, I don't know why, :)) We talked about the IMAX Theater, omg I'm so freaking excited, it has 7 floors daw ehh, The Mall of Asia, then we talked about podcasting and iPods. Her friend has Peyton's podcasts ( from OTH ), isn't that cool? :D

And right now, I don't know what hit me and I'm reminiscing through Mandy Moore songs again. I'm actually downloading songs of her right now, like Only Hope and Cry and Someday We'll Know. I'm reminiscing right now, all the good times when I was little. :-<

Only Hope

I'm awake in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

PS: Ate Maze I'm so going to kill you if you just say something about this. I love you...NOT! :)) ( See, I'm mentioning you here now, so please be nice. Haha.)

Sing to me the song of the stars,
Eunice

Yikes.

2006-05-17T17:00:00.000-07:00

Ampota. I'm permanently toast. Or burnt to crisp. =))

I found something today, or I found someone, that someone shouldn't find something about my something. It's nothing to be grossed, don't be such a green minded person! :))

Anyway, I'm off now, I'm still cracking myself up.

If that person says anything about that something to the other people she knows and by people I refer to my cousins. I am totally gonna murder her or stab her so when I go to jail, it won't be that big of a crime. >:)

Stab my back,
Eunice

whatta life

2006-05-16T23:58:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, I suck. :)) Just a question do I really suck? Because everyone seems to think so. And another one, people are so mean to me in my blog, it's like they like to comment but bad ones, and if you say something, they'll backfire at you, and I don't want that, because I don't like fighting with people.

You could say I'm a coward but that's how I am, and like right now if I say like " I don't care whatever you say!." to whoever who said that, they'll just keep doing it again and again. :(

Believe me, I try to be the person everyone wants me to be, but then when you're trying to be the person they want you to be like, others will say you're some poser or whatever they call that kind of person. And when you try to be yourself everyone just hates you.

I just don't get it, I don't get it at all, when you're nice they say you just need something, when you try to be mean, they say you're not that kind of person. How I wish I could be like someone else. I wish to be the person that everyone likes and everyone wants to be with.

People just always assume that you have to be like them in order to fit in, sure you have to but some part of you doesn't want to and they just can't accept that, they just can't accept that you're trying. It's like when you come to them, you have to be this person, the person that they want with no changes.

For once, I'm confused of who I really am and who I needed to be. I don't know where part of it is really me, because people keep showing up and making things change when you haven't dealt with all your hidden problems, the thing is, once things keep piling up you don't know where to start, the longer you change, the longer you have to come back to who you really are which is hard. It's like when you go on absent for weeks in school and when you come back all the homeworks and lessons you missed are gonna be piling up and you don't know where to start.

Eversince I started highschool and summer came, there are feelings that's harboring inside me. One is anger, next is confusion and dissapointment. I know I don't have to look far, because I know happiness is just with little small things, but still I find it hard to smile on little things. Yes I smile genuinely but then when you start to look back on things you realize, I do smile but fakely.

I care a lot about what other people think about me, maybe that's one reason why I never feel good about myself, because everyone's putting pressure on me when I know they're not. It's like I'm being delusional or something.

I just wanna lose my head like right about now, but who cares right? I'm just venting....And to whoever who said that "walang pumupunta sa site mo. haha" a BIG THANKS, you just made me a lot better, you just made me realize what a big loser I am, you made me relaize how different we are. So we're quits right? You said some nice things and I did too, we're good. Friends? :) I'm trying to be nice here, I hope you are too.

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I went to guitar lessons this day, but before that clammy feeling, I chatted with friends, especially with Mara, about her whole love dilemma thing. Then I talked to Luiza about some new stuff and about The OC. Then I found something that made me smile, I can be resourceful at times, when I needed to be.

Anyway, I'm a sucker for icons, I don't know why, I just started to love icons! :))

Then I bought school supplies, cause school is near after I went to my guiatr lessons. Well about that, I'm less nervous and clammy but still I felt like an idiot, I practiced this guitar piece for like a wekk and I was really good at it and when I came to the actual practice I couldn't play it like I did before. I was like secretly cursing myself for being such a loser. L-)

When we went home I looked for new pictures, then chatted with friends and waited for 8 p.m. cause it's OTH's new episodes, then after that was The OC 3. I wasn't supposed to watch it cause I know what's gonna happen already, but then when I saw Ryan and Marissa together, I watched it again. 8-|

And after that computer again, I talked to Mara, the RT my long-ago bestfriend, he has a band now called Absolute. Then after that I knew something or found out something in my cbox, I'm sure you already read that, because that was the first topic I posted.

Emo is

My Eyes Burn

My eyes burn from these tears
You'd think I'd learn over these years
Good things won't last forever

So what the hell am I suppose to do
You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
And you had it all anyway

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

Tell me I'm wrong when I say
I can't expect you to spend forever with me
I live for that single moment

I take back everything I've said
You wore those words on your lips
As if they meant anything anyway

Sometimes I feel I could drop off the face of the earth
It seems I do more harm than good
And I don't know if it's worth me loosing sleep over this

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

Tell me I'm wrong when I say it
I can't expect you to spend forever with me
I live for that single moment

So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place

My eyes burn from these tears,
Eunice

may 15, 2006

2006-05-15T23:19:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired right now, like physically tired. :(

All I did to day was catch up with friends and talked on the phone for 2 hours or so and ate, or should I say pig out?!! :))

And I discovered something today, I found something new but I don't wanna share it. >:)

I watched project runway a while ago, it was nice. They designed a uniform for the U.S. Postal Service and let me tell you Kara Saun has the most fashionable and functional uniform and next was Jay's. I totally hate Wendy, she's like so evil to all of them, she's like thw wicked withc of the valley! :)) I kinda symphatized with her though, somebody trashed the photo of her daughter, that was just wrong to whoever who did it.

And then I went to search for new teen books and emo songs and some screamo songs. Then I saw that Paris Hilton's going to have a debut album, I know it's not emo, but I just saw it and downloaded some of her songs like Screwed and You Don't See Me. I didn't like SCrewed, she was like whispering in that song and You Don't See Me was kind of like not her voice, it;s definitely someone else's. Because if you just like listen to her talking, you can tell she's like stopping her voice from coming out or she's like making it small to be all cutesy and stuff, but she's definitely not. I like her, I just don't like the way she is. Wow...overshare? :))

Anyways, gotta go sleep, gotta get ready for guitar lessons tomorrow. I hafta be ready for a day of clamminess and feeling queasy. :)) Can my life get anywhere near at hell? Ohh yes, yes it can. >:) :(

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you,

Eunice

Yellow

Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for you,
And all the things you do,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
Your skin,Oh yeah your skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for you,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,I drew a line for you,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow.
"Your skin,Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
t's true,Look how they shine for you
,Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you
,Look how they shine for you
,Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

May 13, 2006

2006-05-15T10:00:00.000-07:00

May 13, 2006

I was supposed to go home this day but it was raining so hard, so we decided to stay and go home the next day.

I'm glad it was raining that day, because I don't wanna go home yet, if I could just stay there I would. :((
I was so tamad that day that all I did was read a book, and then I got tired, so I chatted with my cousins' friends, and played guitar with them.

That's all I remembered that day, so yah, I'm so tamad. =))

Nothing can compare,
Eunice

May 12, 2006

2006-05-15T09:45:00.000-07:00

May 12, 2006

I have nothing much to say, because I have nothing to do there. Just talk and talk with my cousins and tell secrets with each other and bicker in every meal, and we ate non-stop. =))

I don't know what word to describe the day that I had that day, but definitely FUN and HAPPY are the words that would somehow describe it.

I hope everyday is this day,
Eunice

may 11, 2006

2006-05-15T09:30:00.000-07:00

I'm finally back here in our home, I wouldn't say it's good to be home, but I missed home. =P
So right now, I'm blogging for May 11, 2006 ( It was an exciting day.)

May 11, 2006

First, I woke up at 5:20 a.m. I was supposed to wake up around 4:30 a.m. because we needed to go to the church. We woke up like so late, so me and my cousin rushed to the bathroom and gladly our clothes were prepared last night. Then after that we went out to buy some things.

My nephew and I kept playing all day, he was so makulit that I lost patience. >:) Robienne, my nephew, loves my cousin, Angel, like so much, when he doesn't see Angel he'll cry all the way, he's like a brat to me that's why we occasionally fight. :))

Then I took a bath and watched T.V. and let me tell you, I watched PBB Teen Edition for the first time!!! I sometimes see it but I don't watch it and when I got to my cousins' house they were like telling me to watch it cause it's good. Then I said I need to watch ETC and then they were like watch it later, so I watched and gladly I did, I liked it. =)) I love Kim and Mikee! ♥

After that we slept cause we were tired, and I keep waking up like hour after hour then around 4 a.m. I guess, my cousin was talking in her sleep and then I thought she was talking to my other cousin who was awake but she wasn't and she was clapping her hands so me and my other cousins were like looking at each other then started to laugh. :))

Cousins + Me= Never ending FUN,
Eunice

And yeah, I have a new fave book it's The Wedding by Nicholas Sparks, it's a sad story of a married couple, and the husband, Wilson, wasn't demonstrative about his feelings for his wife, Jane. But then he tried to save his 30-year marriage. It's just a sad story, and I love sad love stories! ;))

May 14, 2006

2006-05-14T23:30:00.000-07:00

After we went to church, they wanted to go to our house already, but then Robienne woke up, and you know how he's so attached or should I say addicted to Angel, and then whe he saw Angel dressed, he was crying so we made takas one by one.

Then after the long trip we arrived home, then ate because we were so hungry! :))

Then my dad asked if we wanted to go to the mall, then we did and we watched Poseidon, it was a sad movie! I wa so mad at Chris and Jen, because of them Jen's dad was dead. :((

Then after that we ate, and I bought some stuff, then went home.

Then Ana borrowed my OC DVD and she watched it and I watched it also, haha, I just love the little Ryan and Marissa moments, makes me love them even more!!! ;))

Somber,
Eunice

May 13, 2006

2006-05-14T18:44:00.000-07:00

May 13, 2006

Nothing can compare,
Eunice

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2006-05-12T10:14:00.000-07:00

Hey.

I'm here at my cousin's house right now, so I don't get much time to be online. :P Well anyway tomorrow, (Saturday) I'll be home, so yeah, I'd get to be online whenever I want. :))

May 10, 2006

Wahh, that was a fun, fun day! I had a great time. That day was my Lolo's birthday, so there was party and we went to the cemetery, you get the picture. So I was like chatting with people at like 9 in the morning, then I don't know what happened that day.

Everyone was like asking for favors. =)) First there was Alex, asking me to look for lyrics, then finally I helped Luiza change her blog URL it's http://brighter-than-sunshine-x3.blogspot.com so you might wanna check it out, then there's my dad wanting me to help him in baking and 2 of my friends to look for codes and icons. =)) Wahh it was tiring but fun, I got to help my friends. :)) >:D<

Then after that I was reading fictions and downloading Relient K songs. I love their songs, really good. Then after that I talked to Mara again about our little "secret" =)) then my dad told me to go prepare, so I logged out.

Then we went to buy some food, and went to the cemetery to meet up with my cousins. then we head back straight to y Grandma's house. Then we ate, and got full =)) Then after that me and my cousin Angel was talking about when I could go on vacation at their house, and I wasn't quite sure when, and then she said, why not this week. so yeah, the reason why I'm here at their house right now, is because I took the offer! =)) So that day was a lot of fun.

Then when we were in the car, we were singing and teasing and eating, :)) And then, there was this one song Far Away, that made me go emo again 8- So me and my cousin talked a lot about summer and our life, which pretty much makes us have a lot in common. I thought in our family I was the only one who feels this way, this end-of-of-the-world feeling, not in a geeky way but in an emotional way, she was just like me only different in some way, because at least she gets to be happy whenever. And good thing the music on the radio were all like emo, then I heard Broken, then I started to get like teary-eyed and all and when we reached the house we were still talking about our messed up lives. :((

Then when we arrived, my cousin's boyfriend, Kuya Jessie, was there. He's mean, in a nice way, and he loves my cousin like so much. =)) I've known him since I was like 10 years old and since then he was my enemy, he calls me "kalaban" whenever he sees me. It's been a long time since I saw him, we seldom chat but when we do I still playfully tease and fight with him. =)) I'm the only one who never backs down when he says stupid things and ask them, I'm like always retorting to him, so we'll end up fighting. =)) I can be so makulit when I get to know the person. He says I'm suplada and masungit, I am, when it comes to people I don't know only. :P I remember the time when I was 10 and he used to argue with me, he ends up in the end not saying a word to me because I'm right! haha.

He and my cousin are like 7 years now I think, I take it because he's nice and he's like family and he likes to joke around, a lot, which in our family is a good thing. =)) When I was little I always ask for pasalubong from him and my cousin, and he can never refuse. >:)

We went out to burgers that night, and when I was about to sleep, I said goodnight to the two of them ( see I can be nice! ) then I gave him two pats on the back which is supposed to be a cousinly like hug or kiss, then my cousin glared at me and said I was supposed to give him like a hug or a peck on the cheek because that's what they fo or at least that's what my other cousins do, and then I said like, that's already fine I gave him like 2 pats on the back and that's enough. And I laughed, and he said like " Tapang talaga nun!" and then I made a face. =)) >:)

Cause I'm broken, when I'm lonesome,

Eunice

Broken

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh

I wanna hold you highand steal your pain away

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain'

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel like I am strong enough'

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away

There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain[x2]'

Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I am strong enough'

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away'

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away

You don't feel me here anymore

post

2006-05-10T01:30:00.000-07:00

I am backkkk!!! =))

I did nothing today, just internet as always. =)) I got a lot of pictures and read different fictions.

Yah, and I completed my song downloads, almost. =)) So I am okay with it. and yeah, tomorrow's my Tatay's birthday, my lolo. Actually mamaya pala, because it's 1 in the morning na of the 10th. =)) Haha, I'm bangag na. =)) So I am soooo excited cause it's party and reunion time!!!! :P I can't wait.

Well anyway, I'm chatting with Alex like kaninang hapon, as always she was Bangenge! =)) ( a word I picked up from her, means like makulit and crazy.) and I was chatting with Mara also, talking about confidential stuff or should I say XXX stuff. =)) If you know what I mean. =)) She was crazy, she kept making the fonts big, so that my dad can read it, so I keep closing my YM so that he won't see it, and she was like "Sana mahuli ka!" Hmmmp. haha.

Then a little later I chatted with Luiza, then we talked about the OC about Mischa Barton ( Marissa Cooper) quitting in the OC, it says in some spoiler that she'll OD in drugs, so she's dead. Anyways I hope she won't quit, because I love Marissa and Ryan!

Then Iza, was asking me about new URL addresses, I never realized that it was hard to think of a new URL for someone else that your own. Well anyway, we were thinking a lot of new URLs then, she came up with the word prodigy and we were having a hard time thinking about that, then subsequently thought of my-own-little-world as a URL but then it wouldn't work. Waahh, I wish there's something I could do to help her.

Anyway, I'm off now, my dad, will be furious with me, =)) I spent the whole day with the internet, I think I'm inlove with the internet. =)) 8-| I'm serious, if the internet would be a living thing, I would gladly marry him!!! =))

For once in my life I'm happy,
Eunice

High of 75

We were talking together
I said, "what's up with this weather?"
Dont know whether or not
How sad I just got
'Cause on my own volition.
What if I'm just missing the sun

And tomorrow, I know,
Will be rainy at best.
And the forecast, I know,
Is that I'll be depressed.

But I'll wait outside
Hopin that I'll catch sight of the sun.

[Chorus:]
Because on and off,
The clouds have fought
Their controll over the sky

And lately the weather
Has been so Bi-polar
And Consequently so have I

And now I'm sunny with a High
of 75
Since You took my heavy heart
And made it light

And its funny how you find
You enjoy your life
When you're happy to be alive

[Chorus]

And the temprature is freezing
And then, after dark,
There is a cold frost sweeping
In over my heart

And we might break up
If I dont wake up to the sun

[Chorus]

Sunny with a High of 75
Since You took my heavy heart
And made it light (made it light)

And its funny how you find
You enjoy your life
When you're happy to be...
Alive

MI: III

2006-05-09T13:30:00.000-07:00

I watched Mission Impossible: III last night. The movie was great and of course Tom Cruise was hot. :P =))

The reason why I got to watch it last night was because there was a black out here in our street, so it was totally hot here and we decided to go see a movie.

The gadgets of the movie was really cool especially the machine where they copied the face of Philip Seymour Hoffman but he really was Ethan, that was a cool one. Haha. I wanna be part of the IMF 8-|

Anyway the car was hot! Feisty. :))

Lamborghini Gallardo ( They used it when they went to Vatican City, that's where Ethan Hunt disguised to be Owen Davian)

I totally loved the movie. It was really good and has a little bit of drama in it, even if it's supposed to be an action movie. =)) And of course Tom Cruise was Ethan Hunt and he was hott.!

And here's a pic of Etahn Hunt's team, to rescue Lindsey Farris (Keri Russel).

So that's Declan, Luther, Ethan and Zhen. ( I so wanna be a part of the IMF!!!)

I wanna watch Love Wrecked starring amanda Bynes and Chris Carmack. Chris Carmack was Luke from The OC so I wanna watch it. =))
And RV where Jojo is starring along with Robin Williams.

Well, gotta go. post later around 11 pm.

Far away,
Eunice

op

2006-05-07T23:15:00.000-07:00

Gah, all I did today was watch t.v. and internet. And then our f*cking cable isn't working. ~x(

I was watching Laguna Beach on replays then at the very exciting part it went off. It was the part where Kristin was saying she's not over with Stephen yet. And yeah another bummer is that after that it's One Tree Hill, I didn't get to catch it either.

Wahhh, well, all I did was download songs and read books. I practiced a little in guitar so I wouldn't get to be so nervous on Tuesday, so I wouldn't be a dumba** again. =))

So I talked to my friend Alexx a little, we talked about Aly & Aj and a lot of kalokohan. =))
And then I discovered that there are Philippine audibles pala. =)) Ngayon ko lang nalaman. =))

Well anyway, that's just about it for now and right now I'm chatting with my cousin, who happens to be here having a vacation at my cousin's house which is a few blocks away and I haven't even seen her until now. Ohh, well. :))

No song of my life for this day. =))

Dumbass,
Eunice =))

I have nothing to do.

2006-05-06T16:38:00.000-07:00

"Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Ohh I have nothing to do right now, just downloading and being mesmerized by a lot of songs :))
I love Fix You, it's like everything I feel is there in the song, it's like it read what I am feeling, anyway I don't wanna go dramatic ( Mara says that I'm madrama! =]] )

"Only One"

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Out of boredom....

Your own disaster,
Eunice

yess

2006-05-06T14:00:00.000-07:00

So I'm blogging right now. =))

I started my day with guitar lessons, my guitar lessons was at 9 a.m.-10 a.m. today.

I finally knew one of my weaknesses or shoudl I say dumbness is learning. I figured that I'm a SLOW LEARNER ( bringing myself down much? =)) ). I just got that figured out, I keep telling myself that I'm not, maybe because it's summer my head isn't working properly and appropriately. You wanna know why? Well here it goes:

I was practicing really often because I know it's kinda hard and all, so as I get everything right, when I went there today, I was fidgeting, damn it. I was like totally nervous, I don't know why, it's like whenever I'm there, I get all cold and my hands start to get all clammy ( can you say gross? =)) ). I'm being neurotic. =)) Ughhh. So I got there na, and then I was playing this song that I'm pretty sure I know how to cause, I practiced it a lot. Then so I was like all good and then I played the next song and my hand started to become numb and like stay one one string, I don't know why, when I practiced in our house I was doing okay. So then he said I should use my other fingers when plucking, but I can't, all I was using was like my index finger. So then he gave me an exercise and to me it was easy like simply easy, when I was doing it, I keep messing up and then we keep starting and starting like a bazillion times. And then I knew this would come, the annoyance in his voice, I tried hard not to laugh because I know to myself that I'm really hard to be taught. But then I somehow managed to get it right, but barely =)). So that and here's another thing that I hated, in the notes there is like a 2 beat note, so when you play it you should count like 1-2 before you play the next note, but I keep forgetting it!!! If we know each other like personally maybe he would've said I'm the slowest 14 year old he knows, I swear if you just saw his face, it's like it's gonna explode, well you can't blame him, can you? =)) I'm being so stupid, I don't know why. I was inwardly thinking like "you're so stupid and you're a slow learner!". I can't blame myself for being mean to myself. ( I crack myself up =)) )

That was me babbling on how dumb I am, hope you liked it. Weirdo. =)) 8-|

And anyway, The OC's ending na, like next, next week in the states. And I think One Tree Hill ended also this week. So I'm so excited. 8-|

And I got the graduation of the 4 of them and here it is.

So that's Seth, Summer, Ryan and Marissa. They look so cute and happy!!! Anyway, I still think that Ryan and Marissa should get back together soon as in immediately! Or at the season finale episode. ( If that won't just ruin the show ). Well but at least Ryan and Marissa are gonna go to the same university together, together as in together, but not together together like you know couples and all but together ( rambling 8-| )

Sympathy

Stranger than your sympathy
This is my apology
I'm killing myself from the inside out
All my fears have pushed you out

I wish for things that I don't need
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free
All I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees

Oh yeah everything's all wrong yeah
Everything's all wrong yeah
Where the hell did I think I was

Stranger than your sympathy
I take these things so I don't feel
I'm killing myself form the inside out
Now my head's been filled with doubt

It's hard to lead the life you choose
All I wanted
When all your luck's run out on you
All I wanted
You can't see when all your dreams are coming true

Oh yeah it's easy to forget yeah
You choke on the regrets yeah
Who the hell did I think I was

Stranger than your sympathy
All these thoughts you stole form me
I'm not sure where I belong
Nowhere's home and I'm all wrong

And I wasn't all the things
I tried to make believe I was
And I wouldn't be the one to kneel
Before the dreams I wanted
And all the talk and all the lies
Were all the empty things disguised as me
Yeah stranger than your sympathy stranger than
your sympathy

I love this song, so me.

I'll tell you when I get dumber,(like that will happen!) ohh forgot I already am =)),
Eunice

I just found the perfect songs!

2006-05-05T15:19:00.000-07:00

So I'm reading a fan fic right now and I found the perfect songs for Ryan and Marissa. <3>Wahaha. Here's what I picked.

Everything

Find me here
Speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light that is leading me

To the place where I find peace again
You are the strength that keeps me walking
You are the hope that keeps me trusting
You are the life to my soul
You are my purpose
You are everything
And how can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
You calm the storms
You give me rest
You hold me in your hands
You won't let me fall
You still my heart and you take my breath away
Would you take me in would you take me deeper now
And how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you? could you Tell me how could it
Be any better than this?
'Cause you're all I want
You are all I need
You are everything
Everything

Don't Forget About Us

Just let it die
With no goodbyes
Details don't matter
We both paid the price
Tears in my eyes
You know sometimes
I'd be like that baby

Now everytime I see you
I pretend I'm fine
When I wanna reach out to you
But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
Baby I must confess
We were bigger than anything
Remember us at our best
and don't foget about

Late nights playin' in the dark
And wakin' up inside my arms
Boy, you'll always be in my heart and,
I can see it in you eyes
You still want it
So don't forget about us.

I'm just speaking from experience
Nothing can compare to your first true love
So I hope this will remind you
When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us

Oh hey say
That you're in a new relationship
But we both know
Nothing comes close to
What we had, it perseveres
That we both can't foget
How we used to get it

There's only one me and you
And how we used to shine
No matter what you go through
We are one, that's a fact
That you can't deny
So baby we just can't let
The fire pass us by
Forever we'd both regret
So don't forget about

[[ C H O R U S ]]

When it's for real, it's forever
So don't forget about us.

--- I just think that this is the perfect song for them, because they obviously still love each other. <333

Collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again.

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm always scared to know I'm always on your mind.

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

[[ R E P E A T= F I R S T= C H O R U S ]]

You finally find you and I collide.

--- Even though things don't go smoothly they still find a way to make it work. <33

Pissed off

2006-05-05T15:01:00.000-07:00

I'm so freaking pissed off, I may lose my mind.

"Time flies by so fast
Leaving you stuck in the past.
Sometimes you wanna move on
But memories just keep you standing still."

"Your broken eyes tell me you're not happy
You're broken smile tells me that you're gloomy
If I could just do something about it, I would
But don't you know I'm feeling the same way?
Don't you know that I wish it would all go away?
I never thought I'd be this way and let it stay."

I was never good enough
Always saying toughen up
I was always second best
Never the one to stand out to the rest.
I was always smiling
But now slowly it's fading
Sure I smile, but all of it are lies.

I'm being profound and poetic ( If you can say that. )
Eunice

Boston

in the light of the sun, is there anyone? oh it has begun...
oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
this world you must've crossed...you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

essential and appealed, carry all your thoughts across
an open field,
when flowers gaze at you...they're not the only ones who cry
when they see you
you said...

you don't know me, you don't even care,
you don't know me, you don't wear my chains...

she said i think i'll go to boston...
i think i'll start a new life,
i think i'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
i'll get out of california, i'm tired of the weather,
i think i'll get a lover and fly em out to spain...
i think i'll go to boston,
i think that i'm just tired
i think i need a new tow, to leave this all behind...
i think i need a sunrise, i'm tired of the sunset,
i hear it's nice in the summer, some snow would be nice...
boston...where no one knows my name...

Heyy.

2006-05-04T18:52:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone. I am back. Haha. I didn't get a chance to post for the past two days.

I was supposed to post yesterday but damn it, when I finished fixing my layout our computer shut off! ~x(

Well anyway, nothing much happened, As usual I read a lot of fan fics and new favorite was Together and Apart. This fic is so sad but amazingly written, it's like when I'm reading it I was there. 8-|

May 03, 2006

I practiced guitar a little bit, and then I decided that this day, will be a rest day. :)) So all I did was sit in front of the computer. Haha. =)) Yeah and I was so bummed, cause my aunt was suppose to be on a flight at 6 p.m. and then she didn't catch her flight so we had to pick her up at 10 p.m.

May 04, 2006

I practiced guitar for the rest of the afternoon and then proceeded to fixing my layout, because I was in the mood. And then my computer shut off suddenly, so I was like screaming at my computer! =)) 8-| And then that, I read more fan fics!!! Ohh, ohh and I learned how to play Collide by Howie Day on the guitar that day! =D

Sorry for the short post, it's because I can't use the computer that long. Grounded. arrghhh...

I just wanna bring you down so badly,
Eunice

Happily hurting

2006-05-02T05:49:00.000-07:00

Hey look, another post. =) I'm so not like bored or tired to day, dunno why. =)

And yeah, good news, I learned how to play Iris by Goo Goo Dolls on the guitar. =))
I was like so happy when I learmed how to 'cause it became like my favorite song, I could put it on repeat for hours. Haha. =))

So after that, I don't know what song I'm gonna play next. I'm thinking more like Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana ( I love that song!) or Sympathy by Goo Goo Dolls ( I love Goo Goo Dolls and the song kinda reminds me of the movie "A Cinderella Story" ) or Collide by Howie Day. I don't know yet, but I'm sure whatever I pick would be fine cause I love them, but for me I'd like to play Smells Like Teen Spirit, cause it kinda makes me high :)) It's like when I hear that I wanna sing soo loud, yeahh, rock on!!! =))

Ohh yeah, and I have another something something... I really can't sleep at night, I dunno why but I just can't, I mean sure I'd go to bed like at 11 p.m to like sleep it all off, but then I would really sleep at like 3 a.m. which pretty much sucked because when morning comes, I'm like all groggy and like my head's spinning... Yeah and I feel like my mind isn't working that's why I feel like so dumb =))

Summer, summer, one of my most boring summer. :((

And yeah, so I've been telling A LOT about my favorite fan fics, well it's pretty much a reason for me to wake up like everyday hoping that Ryan and Marissa get back together, at least, in their make-up stories about Ryan and Marissa. Actually their stories are a lot better than on what's happening in the "real" OC, but still it's okay.

And if there's one thing I hate about myself, that would be being SENSITIVE. Yeah, even in stories I totally wipe out or seriously cry. there was like a part in the story where Marissa has forgotten everything they have, her and Ryan, I mean she has gotten an Amnesia or something when she got hit by a car, so when Ryan was like constantly visiting her in the hospital she was always like yelling at him telling him to go. But then one day when Ryan was about to go in her room, she saw Marissa with Johnny ( We all know him, the psycho who fell of the cliff well at least he's a bit better than Oliver and waayyy cuter :p ) laughing and just you know smiling and everything, well considering Ryan is supposed or her boyfriend should have been doing that or myabe at least try doing that with her, but she just didn't want him or like she keeps blocking him from doing it. And obviously Ryan was hurt when she saw her laughing with him like that, when he should have been doing that with her ( God, I'm being repetitive, forgive me =)) ). And then he left and Ryan was like on the verge of crying, so I also cried a lot. I started yelling at Marissa for being so stupid and naive at the same time.

I liked Ryan eversince, he was this brooding, bad boy and yet a very sweet ( but not really showing it all the time) and protective boyfriend, sure he doesn't wanna talk a lot about stuff, but as they say action speaks louder than words. Ryan, being the guy who doesn't talk much shows you a lot how he cares for you, not verbally but physically, and sometimes by being overprotective on hurting other's feelings ( especially Marissa's ) he hurts them still but not on purpose. I just love the guy. I feel so sorry for him whenever they break up, he was like the person in their relationship that was constantly working to try and save it and Marissa was the one who was destroying it, but not actually realizing it. They're perfect for each other though such worlds apart.<3 style="font-style: italic;">One Tree Hill and The OC, I forgot about it, so I didn't get to catch OTH!!! Ohh well anyway, there's a replay on Sunday so it's fine, but I did get to catch a little bit of The OC, where Ryan went to Chino and talked to his d*ck head brother and accidentalliy saw his ex-girlfriend, Theresa. And the part where Seth told Summer his "undying love" for her ( awww ) and the part where Ryan and Marissa danced outside and Ryan said "Sorry I missed prom" and Marissa said "You're just in time." Can't they get any sweeter??!! I love them <333>

Iris by Goo Goo Dolls ( Wala lang, I just wanna put it =D )

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't wanna go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't wanna miss you tonight

[[ Chorus ]]
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in you lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know your alive

[[ Chorus ]]
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am.

[[ Repeat Chorus two times ]]

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am.

<3 that song

"Have you ever have one of those days you wish you could live over again?"

- I definitely have, actually not days but months or years. I certainly want to live those days where I was carefree and not minding what happens the next day, the days where I used to smile all the time with just so little things, the days where everyone gets together every week for a little party or just simply see each other to talk about stuff that didn't really matter whether it exists or not. The days when I used to be the girl who loves everything that she has around whether big or small. And the days when everyone was there, that you could feel each other's presence. And those days were the days that I was 10 years old or maybe 8. Life before then was colorful filled with happy moments and unforgettable things, but now my life was painted with dark colors, where happiness is hard to find, somehow the life where you should really look in, the life where you should be searching keenly and carefully to find what your looking for, unlike before where it was just with you, taking you where you want to.

[[ --- I never realized I could be so profound, or should I say emotional? =) ]]

"Be my escape."

Even the best fall down sometimes,
Eunice

Holy awkward :))

2006-04-30T22:51:00.000-07:00

Uhmm yeah last night was kinda awkward. *rolls eyes*

I know this isn't supposed to be, but to our family it is, it's like when you're bringing your girlfriend or boyfriend in our home was kind of a big deal, well at least for my dad, as well as for my mom.

Yeah, so last night my sister's boyfriend came here, too bad I was like downloading tons of songs and reading in the internet when he came so I had to go to my room and practice guitar. Gah, it totally sucked, I was like in over my head in reading my fave fan fic, when he came.

And so it begins, holy awkward, my dad spent most of his time in his room while I am in mine.

I thought my dad was gonna like talk to him about him and my sister, or the reason why he came was because to talk to my dad, well I missed the point of him coming over to our house. [ Or if there was a point :)) ] He only came to the house to you know hang out and all not really to have the "big talk" ( As I refer to my dad talking my brother's girlfriend or my sister's boyfriend =)) ).

So when he was about to leave, they said their goodbyes and all and then the "talk" came. And guess what, I was there I heard everything, but I was pretending like I didn't even care, that I wasn't listening and busy with what I was doing ( I was downloading songs...), I tried my best not to laugh or somehow tried my best NOT to start laughing at the start of the "big talk". I really didn't wanna be rude. It's just when my dad talks about stuff like if you're going to marry her or blah, blah, blah, I just don't think my sister would even be marrying soon, I mean I know she will, but not really at this point, so I just don't think it's appropriate to be talking things like that. My sister said it was okay though, but I told her it was too early to be saying things like that, but I guess in my dad's POV ( point of view) they should be like ready with everything when that time comes. ( Which I know won't be happening anytime soon)

So then when we were about to sleep my sister keeps asking me on what I think about what my dad said, as usual I find it unappropriate at least at the timing to which when it was said.

I even joked about my sister if she even really loves him or something and kept asking if they were soulmates or something ( I know I sound so childish, when it comes to the family I can be :p) then I told that when she gets married or even my brother does, I would like totally cry!!! She kept laughing while I was like totally dazed out on what might happen when she does or my brother does.

For me, It's good to see someone or hear someone that they are going to be married, I just don't buy into the whole happy ending thing. It's just a lot of people end up marrying each other and then for the next couple of years or so they'll break up or find someone better.

Sure being married could be fun, but once you get used to that same person everyday, you kinda wish you were with a different person, at least that's how they feel ( I mean based on some show or on ohter people's lives :)) )

And yeah, I also don't believe in soulmates, sure you'll find that one person you think you're gonna live for the rest of your life but the opposite. I mean, it's not like you're gonna be together forever, but I still do believe in forever just not with love.

Cause for me marrying someone is just like having a boyfriend whom you've dated like years ago only you're being tied with him forever, or at least until you have love for each other. I just don't see why you have to marry that person to be tied like forever when you can have him forever just not really like marriage has it, for kids maybe?! =))

Life and it's complexities are just hard to understand.

Being pessimistic and completely dazed out on how love works,
Eunice

It's been so long

2006-04-29T07:31:00.000-07:00

Hey world, it's me. Haha. =))

God, it's been like forever since I posted here, so yeah it's been like a week or something.

The reason why I haven't been around to posting is because all I do was practice for guitar lessons and read my ohh-so fave fan fics. Haha =))

And yeah The OC Season 3's gonna end na, like two episodes are left and I can't wait for those!!! It sucks that in ETC they're gonna air the OC 3 in like May 16 I think, when it's like almost over. That's why I downloaded all the episodes in our computer and yeah, I'm like so happy!! My brother's friend, knows where I could buy like fake dvds of the OC so I told my brother to get me the season 3!!! I'm gonna get it next week!!! :))

And also One Tree HiIl's ending also. I so hate LUCAS EUGENE SCOTT! >:) He cheated on Brooke for the second time again and also with the same girl- Peyton. Damn it! :(( He even told Brooke he's the one for her, and again he cheated... I thought this time he'll be like so different from the Lucas he was and he was still the Lucas from before only hotter =)) Yeah and he even said like " I love you" to Peyton and Peyton said "I love you too" back. I can't believe those two, maybe this time they're finally over and Brooke would never forgive Peyton. But still, I want Lucas and Brooke together, if Lucas and Peyton get together, I'll be loving the OC so much more!!! *grins* =))

So that's all for now,

Edit this if I have time,

exhausted and happy
Eunice ♥

"You're the one that I want."

"Did you see her face? Girls like that, are born with a boyfriend." - I love this one! It's so true. When you see a girl who is beautful, you'll always say "Siguro ang daming nanliligaw dyan." :))

Sore fingers =((

2006-04-18T08:05:00.000-07:00

Today was like one of the most hardest days I have ever had! My fingers are totally sore.

That's because today is the day of my guitar lessons. It's fun but it's hard, you know with all the hard pressing on the string. God, I thought I have like long fingers, but then when I was doing the exercise it was really hard.

I have like 5 exercises before I play the guitar and I have one assignment, which I haven't done yet, hopefully tomorrow because may fingers hurt so bad!

So yeah, short post I know. Sorry. Besides you wouldn't wanna be hearing from me anyway right? I just made this to let my feelings out so yeah.

My fingers hurt so bad,

Eunice ♥

Boring-ness and Lame-ness

2006-04-18T06:11:00.000-07:00

Yeah, so uhm haven't been blogging in a while, again I have nothing but so much things to do. AMP. Labo. :))

April 12, 2006

Yeah, so I forgot what I did that day. :)) But one thing's for sure, I read a lot of new fan fics about the OC that day. And yeah totally pissed because my fave site isn't working on our computer! *RAWR* Why did my uncle have to download some nonsense music? If he didn't, this computer might be working normally or this might be functional. [[ I'm mean! ]] =))

April 13, 2006

I read new fan fics again for sure. I kinda don't remember anything. Haha. Maybe this was the day that Tatum git back from her province, I really don't remember anything, I must be getting old! =)) Yah, and maybe I was EMO that day [[ As always ]] =))

April 14, 2006

My aunt came. She's living in Arizona, but when she came here, she's like from Japan I think. Cause there has been some problems with my cousin ( which is her daughter) who is living there. So there, her arrival was supposed to be like at 10:30 PM, she was there at the airport like 10:20 but her luggage came a little late ( or really late =I ) so she got out at like 11: 30 PM. Wahh, I spent my time there standing and looking annoyingly at the monitor to see if she has arrived. Of course she did =)) We're not really that close ( me and my aunt) so we don't talk that much, but she's nice to me and all.

April 15, 2006

So before this night, I was kinda hoping that we'd go out, you know mall and stuff. Well we did! =)) I was with my aunt and my other aunt and my cousin. So yeah, first we ate at congo grille. I wasn't really hungry so it's okay. Then we went to the mall, ATC, so my other aunt went to like a nail spa or something. So the three of us went to the food court and saw some of my sister's friends. We greeted them and all and went back to the nail spa, then we went to pancake house to eat again. =))

April 16-17, 2006

Aside from being tortured from my dad's non-stopping-and yet-he-thinks-it's-funny comments, I did nothing but read fan fics. God, if I my dad hadn't been rambling to me about how messy I was with my stuff and how 'bad' ( as he referred to me not paying attention to him) I was since summer or maybe not summer started, I wouldn't had left the computer. *GRIN*. My dad's been totally like punishing me from being I don't know, me. Good thing I brought my friend SARCASM with me and survived with him. He's like constantly irritating me over some stuff that seriously he knows that I don't care. [[ I'm starting to be like Seth Cohen from The OC, ohh sarcasm and irony, things needed to survive in this life. ]]

I maybe mean, but he's more.

Life is just so complicated and horrible. It's like it's there to either break you or put you together. I mean it's like life's just there to make you feel worse and yet give you some good things, which you'd rather not accpet because there are a lot more bad things happening.

Sweet Sarcasm. Ohh I need a bestfriend, would you be that one?

People come into our lives and quickly go.

Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to a new understanding with a passing whisper of their wisdom.

Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.

They stay in our lives for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never ever the same.

---Yes it's true. Some people come and go, either to make you more aware in life and let you take a step forward or just be left in the world where you are just worse. They may pass wisdom and may also pass mistakes, mistakes that you should have never done, which make you or turn you into a whole new different person. There are people who come to re-build you and there are people who destroy you. And some are there to make life bearable even if it totally sucks, just like friends. And some are constantly there, just to be ther when people come and go, they're the ones who would never leave you even if you wanted to, family. And there you are accepting everything, everything that has been given to you, either it's good or bad.

---People always leave. But sometimes they come back. (( One Tree Hill ))

Analyzing Life and Being Sarcastic,

Eunice ♥